Stain

In late hours of night I take out my blade
Across my skin I spell your name
But as I dig in the letters spell hate
I consider this as I think about our fate
I press in deep, cut to the meat
Dress my leg in hot ribbons of defeat
Crimson streamers colour my skin
I smile softly as the numbness sets in
I carve out anger, carve out the pain
Relief through harm my only gain
I clean the wound and don my mask
Pretending I'm fine my only task
I'm left with painful thoughts of you
I bury them deep, they sit and stew
They crippled my emotions, break my mind
Reasons to keep going are hard to find
They hide in sunlight, run free in the dark
Thoughts of you are a stain on my heart