purpose

-here's a tab of acid for your ears
-ima let u know somethings i haven't talked about in years
-but lately I've been overcome by all my fears
-and sadly to say i wish i can start shedding real tears
-thinking back on life and how mines seemed to play out
-its been nights i felt suicide was the best way out
-laying in the dark feeling like i wanna shout
-wondering if im depressed maybe i need to figure it out
-smiles and laughter always hides the sad truth
-but when u can't sleep at night the truth is eating up at u
-do i have a purpose god send me down some proof
-or is my life meaningless and if so i know what to do