what have i become

I lived like I was nice and a kind person
but deep in side of me I can talk to ghost
and be a different person that feeds of
people hate and just fight people al day
long but what have I become to be two people
and just don't know what one I want to be
the devil or an angel. it just so weird.

life is just a game and it's painful
like the hunger games, that a game and
life is like that thinking it
can destroy us but one or more of
us can be strong and destroy the game
that life brings to us. what will I become
too many question in my head to answer one
and it will tell me if I am a devil or an angel
what would I be, what can I be, how does life become
suck a game and why would life be like this
to destroy us with problems and have friendship that
will backstab, how does life be like this