dad

 the day i found out about you...
was the onset of my depression.

the stories i was told and the lies i was fed by them...
still result in me hating all of you.

if only i died when i was conceived...
i wouldn't have to go through all this heartache.

i've never even met you before and you still hurt me...
i wish i'd have never known of your existence.

all those painful childhood memories without you...
and still i'm without you.

maybe i'm better off without a dad and without this 'family'...
lost in this darkness of a betrayal.
 
i've killed you in my mind...
but in my genetics you remain haunting me.