Just End It

everyone wonders how life would be with out them in it
that thought haunts my mind constantly, I must admit
I feel like there's no where else to go from here
I know when it comes to death, there's nothing to fear
I can see how my death would affect people in my life
to some my death would be as painful as the feel of a knife
maybe the death in me will go away some fateful day
other wise I'm going to drown in this painful way
It's like with every breath that I take, I see you're face
maybe someday soon someone else will take you place
someday I'll be able to stand as tall as I did before
but right now every atom of me is screaming no more
a tears sneaks so slowly down my pale, scared face
I lay down on my bed and cry into my soaking pillow
now I'm just like the girl in the legend of the weeping willow
I'll forget how for a short period of time, you made forget my crime
maybe everyone else is right, that I'm not strong enough for this fight
I'm always left aching, hurting so badly in the dark of night
just don't try to help me, I'm begging you, please
ignore my pitiful cries and just turn around and leave