Let me lament

With past hopes of being happy,
My smile once unwavering, fell with tears.
And I put down my pen of romance,
Ink only meant for enchanted lovers,
And without reason to not be pensive
I smirk upon my overachieving dreams:
“To love and be loved was not far,
It’s there over the horizon I repeat.
She smiles at me, I’m coming soon
To a forever where our eyes will meet.”
Sighs slip through my tattooed grin-
An ironic grin upon my deceiving face
To smile in front of the face of death!
Knowing it costs my dignity aside from soul.
And within the shadows, unwillingly,
Unwantedly, passionately I drown myself.
Let me lament! Let me lament!
Allow me, Love, allow me to drop tears.
Allow me to close my eyes and fall asleep
To dream of misery, to sleep in the cold-
To slowly numb myself of this suffering.
I always thought if you loved enough
With a love more than that of your heart,
With a love more than heavenly soul
Then it shall be returned. Petty change accepted.
So as I reminisce on your garland of my love
Returned to me as you had a bushel full,
Let me lament, Let me, let me…