Leave me alone.

 


Honey, I want you to light my forest on fire tonight, my desires. Set my thoughts ablaze and forget my name. I didn’t mean to fall so deep. You see, this wasn’t the name of my game. From distances that drop didn’t seem so high, but really who am I to blame? Maybe it’s because I’m so weak in the knees or maybe it’s because I fall in love with the most unobtainable things. I don’t know, but whatever the case is I know that when I look in your eyes my heart flutters like fire flies in June. I light up feeling brand new, whenever I hear your voice. It’s not my choice to feel this way, but it is my choice to escape.

I can’t stand to be raped again, have my heart ripped out. It’s like a terrible fall; I know that once I have fallen I will never be able to walk again. This is a rode I can’t go down, so I have to ask that you leave me alone. Take the syllables to your name out of my chest. I can’t play music for a woman who dances to another man’s kick drum. It’s time I accepted the reality that me plus you equals heart break

{part ll}

And still I stand here looking at you perplex with sand pouring from my hands. Time has never seemed to be on my side. My chest feels like melting ice. I’m disappearing like the captain of a sinking ship. I’m better off lost at sea, but the truth is I just want to be found. Maybe one day someone will save me from myself and this will be nothing more than a bad dream. I’ll wake up, look at the ceiling and hardly remember a thing. One can only hope that someday they find true happiness. I just throw quarters in the ocean wishing to have that hope. When that doesn’t work, I just jump in face first.