NOTES ON AN ABORTED SUICIDE

I cannot live
with the ceaseless sorrow
that surrounds me
the hollowed out hopelessness
the isolation
that my banishment has brought me to

I cannot see a future
with this bond
that ties me to you
these unforgiving shackles
that suspend me
in a world
I don’t belong to

And yet

I cannot die
with all these words inside me
the flights of thoughts
that compel me to believe
that tiny seed of hope
that still clings to
my unlived life
my broken promises
my dead dreams of you

Something holds me back
something that opens
quietly inside me says
do not do
the desperate thing
that you have planned
to do

(Collage: The Secret Garden 2 by Carlton)
© Carlton Carr 2013
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