Betrayal

. . . a bitch on heels that I've been
in close contact with one too many times
I remember that one encounter
when she came at me like a tornado of hellish fire

It seems like it was only yesterday when the one I thought was my closest friend revealed her true demonic form to me
It seems like it was only yesterday when she sliced and diced my heart
It seems like it was only yesterday when she smiled at me fully knowing that she was fucking my boyfriend behind my back

I thought I knew pain until that day
I thought I was bitter, but never like that
I thought I had seen it all, heard it all, wept about it all . . . until she did that
I thought "How could she do this to me when I've been nothing but good to her?"

I didn't care about the guy
Hell, boys come and go
But friends?
Aren't they supposed to be forever?

I still fantasise about banging her head against the wall
Choking the life out of her
Kicking her until she coughs up blood
Even stabbing her sometimes

This happened 7 months ago and I can't get over it
I've tried
Believe me,I have

The thought of her name makes bile rise up my throat
It chills me to the bone
It induces tears in my eyes
It takes me to my darkest place

I want to let it go
To forget it ever happened
But how can I?
When my mind keeps bringing it up?
When I've never once heard an apology coming from her mouth?
When she pretended to care about me?
When she not so delicately ripped my heart from my chest?

Ah, yes
On that particular day
Betrayal was fiestier than ever
With a touch of extra bitch in devil's clothing

I still cry about it
Still mourn the loss of a friend
But I also thank God everyday
For the lessons He has taught me