Lost & Confused

I am the grey blur
I am the friend you laugh with
I am that guy you laugh at
I am the shy one
 
Although I always have something to say
I have a burning temper
But I keep a cool distance
I always have a new plan, a new scheme
 
I am so tired I find it hard to keep going
I am the normal one who is part of "The Popular group"
I am the one who sits alone in the corner with a book
I am the one who works that bit harder
I am the one who has lost interest and no longer cares
 
I always try and support my friends
I feel as a start to crack from the strain
But whoever supported Atlas?
 
I am the one who can't ever stop
I am the one afraid of starting
I am the one who is determined to fly
 
Am I the only one who can feel the speed of my fall?