regardless

she's gonna double down on stupid  
as if impulse  
was the medicine  
for desire  
inflicted by spontaneity  
 
it is not
 
but rest assured  
heads will roll
regardless
 
and when they are put back
in the tidy of her allowance
I will tell her that this is merely the friend
that I confide in
 
She will be stuck on "stupid"
insisting that its brute tense
is a simple insult  
nothing more
 
I will implore her
to pretty-pretty-please
mother fucking believe  
that as good as it felt  
to start and end on that word
something more
tightened its belt
 
She is an English major
won't buy it
 
yet my head's stitched on right
again
regardless