Ink Laden Memories

My words and deeds now written
Age old pages won't forget them
Ink to paper my soul rides the pen
The sinister voice inside
It seems he's at it again
Coaxing my doubts to come out and play
This monster within
He mocks me from behind my eyes
The mirror shatters smiling lies
A darkness released but hidden all the same
Two steps forward
Heart turns black
Now I fear I can't go back
Murmured voices from a better time
Smiles and joy
A sun that shines
I search in the mist as I hear them call
The seasons shift
But I'm still frozen inside
Could it be
That me has died
I search in vain
For what seems like sin
Hoping one day to find him again