Am I crazy?

Am I crazy to still feel this way?

I can list the date of basically everything that we've been through.. The first day we met, the first time we talked on the phone, first argument, all of the days we stopped talking. I can tell you every date, with a detailed description on why it happened.

I still remember full conversations that we had together.. Word for word. I remember exactly where I was when we had these conversations. I can still remember the feeling that I had when you first told me you loved me.. More than three years ago.

I still remember the first moment that you broke my heart.. I remember word for word what you said, "the reason I've been acting different with you is because I don't want to mess things up with my boyfriend, but at the same time I don't want to lose you."

Why can I still hear you saying that to me?...

I remember all of our "songs" to this day. Every lyric and beat too.

Am I crazy for remembering all of this? Am I crazy for loving you after all of the pain you caused me? Am I crazy for still wishing you'd come back to me even though it's been about a year since the last time you told me you loved me?.. Am I crazy for sticking around through all of this and not giving up hope? Am I crazy for hoping that somehow you'll see this and give me the answer that I want?..