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conversation with my ex
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel sad because u myt tnk I'm tryna change u
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel angry because u don't wanna give it a try.
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel afraid because I myt stop loving u 4 ds lame reason of style, neatness and cleanliness, hygiene to sum it up
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel afraid that I myt just fall 4 him, he huz asking me out n has all the above
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel ashamed and embarrassed wen u hv 2 meet ppl I know, wen I hv 2 kiss u n den tnk abt ur hygene problems, embarrassed that evn ur armpits sumtyms smell
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel guilty bcos I've once tot of lvng u, I once luked @ another man n tot of him as my man n dat alone is adultery, da tot alone IS adultery
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel sorry because I dnt feel the same bout u anymore.
9/17/2013 22:36: Me: Remember this is nt 2 break us bt 2 make us.
9/17/2013 22:58: Vincent: Wow. I never knew it went that far. I'm sorry for making you feel this way. Its unfortunate that its come to this. I could feel your distance for quite some time. You no longer spoke to me or treated me the same. You kept pushing me further and further away. The profile pictures and the response to my questioning you kind of told me that the end was creeping closer. In such a short space of time we've deteriorated so bad. I was always willing to clean up my act for you and I knew I wasn't doing it fast enough. But I wasn't going to change overnight. I was trying though, and I was slowly getting into the habit of something I never cared for for most of my life. I've always been the dirty kid and now I realise I'm still the dirty kid. But I guess I can't change quick enough. If you feel I'm not worth the effort and the wait then you should feel free to inform me and make a choice that will suit you best. You shouldn't tie yourself down for the sake of feeling bad. If you feel you want to continue then ill continue trying for you. But you can't keep treating me the way you have lately and continue to push me away to justify your frustrations because it will be the cause of our end. I don't mind changing for someone, change is part of growing. But some change requires lots of help and assistance because it means breaking habits that have existed for years. I would never be ashamed about you for anything so that part really hurts me the most that it can even change the way you feel for me. But it allows me to understand how important hygiene is for you. If you feel I'm worth the effort I'm willing to continue this journey with you. But if I'm too much for you like I said feel free to make a choice that will suit you best. You shouldn't cause conflict within yourself to sacrifice what matters most in your life, especially if it begins to cause you conflict with God. Do what feels right for you so you can ultimately find true happiness
9/17/2013 23:08: Me: Tnks
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel angry because u don't wanna give it a try.
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel afraid because I myt stop loving u 4 ds lame reason of style, neatness and cleanliness, hygiene to sum it up
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel afraid that I myt just fall 4 him, he huz asking me out n has all the above
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel ashamed and embarrassed wen u hv 2 meet ppl I know, wen I hv 2 kiss u n den tnk abt ur hygene problems, embarrassed that evn ur armpits sumtyms smell
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel guilty bcos I've once tot of lvng u, I once luked @ another man n tot of him as my man n dat alone is adultery, da tot alone IS adultery
9/17/2013 21:54: Me: I feel sorry because I dnt feel the same bout u anymore.
9/17/2013 22:36: Me: Remember this is nt 2 break us bt 2 make us.
9/17/2013 22:58: Vincent: Wow. I never knew it went that far. I'm sorry for making you feel this way. Its unfortunate that its come to this. I could feel your distance for quite some time. You no longer spoke to me or treated me the same. You kept pushing me further and further away. The profile pictures and the response to my questioning you kind of told me that the end was creeping closer. In such a short space of time we've deteriorated so bad. I was always willing to clean up my act for you and I knew I wasn't doing it fast enough. But I wasn't going to change overnight. I was trying though, and I was slowly getting into the habit of something I never cared for for most of my life. I've always been the dirty kid and now I realise I'm still the dirty kid. But I guess I can't change quick enough. If you feel I'm not worth the effort and the wait then you should feel free to inform me and make a choice that will suit you best. You shouldn't tie yourself down for the sake of feeling bad. If you feel you want to continue then ill continue trying for you. But you can't keep treating me the way you have lately and continue to push me away to justify your frustrations because it will be the cause of our end. I don't mind changing for someone, change is part of growing. But some change requires lots of help and assistance because it means breaking habits that have existed for years. I would never be ashamed about you for anything so that part really hurts me the most that it can even change the way you feel for me. But it allows me to understand how important hygiene is for you. If you feel I'm worth the effort I'm willing to continue this journey with you. But if I'm too much for you like I said feel free to make a choice that will suit you best. You shouldn't cause conflict within yourself to sacrifice what matters most in your life, especially if it begins to cause you conflict with God. Do what feels right for you so you can ultimately find true happiness
9/17/2013 23:08: Me: Tnks
Published 18th Sep 2013
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