sleep deprived

I'm sick of all this trying. i live for today with a soul thats blind. I need an escape or just a quick place to chill so i can't gather my thoughts and plan not to kill. I'm all alone and my dreams are all shattered ,like broken mirrors that i threw as i grew outrageously Madder !! My eyes cry sadder and the evil grows fatter. When will my devouring become complete shits starting to taste real sour? smells like some feet cuz their too high to shower! Time goes by quicker when your plotting your power.Sleep is for the weak i can go another 24 hours but i'd look like a freak so i'll walk in the shadows. I need a sip to drink i swallowed a cotton. Holy shit could it really be that it's my children i have again forgotten!!??? They were the shadows that danced on the walls they were the whispers of the small faint mommy whisper calls. they were the cries for me to come down, they saw in my eyes that i could no longer be found. yet they loved me so loyal and never looked down. My guilt flew all over and angery I sound! why shit sure does get colder when heated I'm found.An I'm looking quite older and ran to the ground. I want this ride to be over ....I'm no longer haveing any fun! All I really want to do is take off and RUN!