I Just Can't

I don’t see the way I should...
my vision blurred
I don’t think straight anymore...
through clouded thoughts
I just can’t seem to feel good...
through all of this muck

I don’t dream anymore when I sleep
nightmares take control
I  don’t wake up to face the day...
with a spring in my step
I just can’t seem to shake...
the cobwebs away

I can’t stand up straight...
and walk tall
I can’t look at my reflection...
for fear I’ll cry
I just can’t seem to get comfortable...
with who I am

I don’t know how to heal myself...
and move on
I can’t stop the thoughts I think...
from hurting me
I just can’t seem to leave the past...
behind