Kicking Thoughts

This pain.
These shakes.
The hell week awaits.
This hurt.
This lack.
The horrid crave is back.
This evil.
This feel.
I can't believe it's real.
The sweat.
The crave.
My mind goes insane.

A day.
A week.
How long has it been?
My God.
My life.
Away for a binge.
The future.
The past.
How long will this last?
The love.
The hate.
My mind can't contemplate.

A drive.
A call.
Can take away it all.
This room.
These walls.
God I hate them all.
These days.
This kick.
I've had enough of it.
Decision.
Decision.
What a decision.

A choice.
A chance.
What should I do?
This pain.
These days.
Can I make it through?
Question.
An answer.
My mind is confused.
A remedy.
Or freedom.
What should I do?