Pain and Agony

Pain and agony,
Why was this brought onto me,
Others have it so much worse,
So how dare I look for pity for my hurt,
But I can't help feel bad for myself,
And wish I was someone else,
I'm just a piece of shit,
Gimme some drugs so I can take a hit,
Make everything better,
I should leave a death note in the form of a letter,
Shoot myself in the face,
For I am a disgrace,
To my poor mother,
She deserved another,
Son, I don't deserve to be in her presents,
She's a queen and I am but a pheasant,
No one is left to blame,
I need to change things can't stay the same,

Written by a true Meenjataka