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Blameless
See, I've always believed in keeping
my feelings and my thoughts to myself,
but on that particular day I told him how
I felt...
He looked at me attentively as I opened
the door to my heart, teary eyed as I told
him how painful it was when he neglected
me as a child after dumping me at my
grandma's house when I was only 2
When I finished reciting this to him,
trying to catch my breath and hold
back my tears, he laughed and brushed
it off like I had just told him that my
tooth came out while biting an apple
... he never apologised, never even showed
remorse or a shred of sympathy...
He finds no fault in all the ways he has
wronged me and blames my mother
for my behaviour towards him for,in his
mind, he is flawless... blameless
my feelings and my thoughts to myself,
but on that particular day I told him how
I felt...
He looked at me attentively as I opened
the door to my heart, teary eyed as I told
him how painful it was when he neglected
me as a child after dumping me at my
grandma's house when I was only 2
When I finished reciting this to him,
trying to catch my breath and hold
back my tears, he laughed and brushed
it off like I had just told him that my
tooth came out while biting an apple
... he never apologised, never even showed
remorse or a shred of sympathy...
He finds no fault in all the ways he has
wronged me and blames my mother
for my behaviour towards him for,in his
mind, he is flawless... blameless
Published 9th Sep 2013
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9th Sep 2013 1:12pm
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9th Sep 2013 1:23pm
Not anymore hey,glen. It seems like the more I write about it,the less painful it becomes. Thank you for reading it (:
Such cruelness! I'm sorry you had to go through that,Theo. And thank you (:
Such cruelness! I'm sorry you had to go through that,Theo. And thank you (:
9th Sep 2013 2:49pm
And there is no accounting for tastelessness, but you have resolved your own part...the part that matters. Good write.
9th Sep 2013 3:19pm
It is said that patterns develop when it comes to raising children. The tendency is strong to raise our own children the way we were raised. I wonder what kind of childhood did the father in this poem have?
9th Sep 2013 3:43pm
Thank you turtle.
And he had quite a good childhood from what I've heard,J. He was his mother's favourite and that aroused hatred for him from his siblings.
And he had quite a good childhood from what I've heard,J. He was his mother's favourite and that aroused hatred for him from his siblings.
9th Sep 2013 4:07pm
Cinth you break my heart when you write like this. Purge through poetry hun xo
Anonymous
9th Sep 2013 4:59pm
yep, i know the feeling hyacinth.
strider
strider
9th Sep 2013 5:24pm
9th Sep 2013 7:16pm
Nothing ever feels as painful as a father being nonchalant about your pain. You know my story, I know yours. The relation is much too vivid.
Sad, but beautiful poem in that you have people here in DU, who won't ever laugh but be here for you.
Sad, but beautiful poem in that you have people here in DU, who won't ever laugh but be here for you.
9th Sep 2013 8:01pm
I'm very thankful for them and I'm also very thankful for having a friend like you hunn. xo
Anonymous
10th Sep 2013 6:04am
So heartbreaking, fractured childhood never heals, i hope you're able to find solace in your words.
10th Sep 2013 6:18am
I am (: as I said to glen,the more I write the less pain I feel. Thank you for reading,Vee xo
