Originally Misunderstood

Their eyes are on me, penetrating my soul
I feel so paranoid and guilty
Why is it I always feel this way?
Vulnerable, despised, weak, and low
when I tell someone how I feel

“Don’t take it personally.”
These four words intensify all the feelings
Why didn’t I just let it go?
This is when I feel worthless
Self-destruction begins

Everything I am, what I’ve built…
can anybody understand me?
Is it because people are too afraid
to put themselves out there?
These thoughts run through my mind constantly

Will I ever learn?
I knew this would happen
the moment I decided to express my sensitive side
I am aware of my issues and that I need to change
but I can’t help but believe that trying to change will not help

Organized religion warps my mind –
I start looking at things in a negative light
How can that be good?
I have found peace through God purely;
No Bible… just me and Him

I know I’m this way for a reason
I can make a difference
I will make a difference and prove them all wrong