only my imagination

if there's a heaven why cant I see it?
I know there's a hell, because I can feel it.

I wont ask for your forgiveness,
I don't want it,
your words mean nothing to me,
just because you don't believe in it,
doesn't mean its not real.

you say its my mind playing tricks on me,
only my imagination,
its my own creation,
a fantasy inside me.

you say There's a heaven,
you say there's a god,
then why has he forsaken me?
why cant you leave me be?

I want to be in this hell,
its not something to fear,
my end is here.