screaming in my psychotic mind

do you hear me?
                screaming,
                        begging,
                                pleading,
                                    crying on the floor
                                              like a small child
just praying,
              asking,
                    wishing the world away.
the screams in my psychotic mind
              so cunning,
                    secretly willing me
                                to take my own life.
and i beg for help,
              screeching in the night,
                    crying,
                          pleading,
                                begging on the floor 
                                            like a small child,
                                    so weak,
                      so powerless
against the demons 
          that haunt her.
you don't listen to my psychotic rages.
          you don't care to hear them.
                  oh, i know you will never do anything,
                                but maybe I still hope you will one day hear
                                        my screaming,
                                                my begging,
                                                      my pleading on the floor
                                                                        like a small child,
                    but by then it will be too late.