Glitter in these veins..

I remember laying on my bedroom floor with you,
My room at my mothers.
I cared so much,
You were my world.
The girl and her guitar.
I was proud to call you mine.
And I gave my all.
But I don't know what to say.
It's all fucked up now.
And it's so over now.
Sometimes I remember,
I smile,
Than I frown.
Cause of what's happening now.
Cause of who you are now.
Just know I loved that girl so bad,
She made me feel so special.
Like she only had eyes for me,
I never saw the day coming.
That you'd look at him,
Like you looked at me.
That you'd touch him,
Like you touched me.
And promise him  
All the things you promised me.
Maybe I deserve it,
For what I don't really understand.
I had my reasons for being an asshole,
I know they don't make it okay.
I was so proud of her,
While she hid me everyday.
I wasn't good enough,
But he is?
Are you kidding me!
It's sickening!
I was such a fool,
I waited for you.
Who could blame me for being a dick,
When you acted like you didn't love me.
To pretty much everyone,
I wasn't worth it.
You clam to loved/love me so much.
Yet, you couldn't show how you felt to anyone but me?
I don't deserve much,
But fuck I deserved that at least.
Maybe I wasted a lot of good things And a lot of good memories on you.
I don't regret it,
Your either here to stay or your another lesson to learn from.
Just sucks to know you're only a lesson.
I thought you were so much more,
I truly did.
I loved you so much,
My feelings I crush.
Cause I can't show weakness again.
I can't let you in again,
You're no good for me.
You only hurt me.
The heart wants,
What the brain don't need.
 
Glitter I bleed...  
 
This is bullshit!!
 
Nik.J.Tucker