I Dont Know Anymore

I Don't Know Anymore.. 
Life seems to be 
A giant tangled mess.. 

There's a fork in the road 
And cracks and speed bumps 
Seem to haunt my path... 

I don't know anymore.. 
The meaning 
Of my very existence.. 

I leave one day 
And come back another 
Exactly the same.. 

I don't know anymore.. 
Why love won't bless me 
With it's sweet, undying passion.. 

It doesn't boast or compete 
Nor does it shout or squeal 
And I can't find it wherever I look.. 

I don't know anymore.. 
Why my heart lies in this hell 
And suffers this everlasting fate.. 

It burns and cries to me 
But its all in vain 
Because there's nothing I can do to help.. 

I don't know anymore.. 
Why my mind has been sent 
To life in this underlying prison.. 

It wanders and paces 
Back and forth in that tiny 
Cramped cell.. 

I don't know anymore.. 
The meaning of passion 
And everything within it.. 

Passion used to be color 
Spread on the artist palette 
Now it's all black and white 

Can I return? 
Can I be who I was? 
Can I find love? 
Can I discover the meaning of my existence?
Can I ever help my heart out of this hell? 
Can I free my mind from this prison? 
Can I re-invent the color of passion?... 

Maybe one day 
I'll find my way 
And rebirth 
The many parts of me 
that died off 
Yesterday...