Dad vs. Drugs

I just wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I want my dad back, who is this monster you have become?
I haven't know the real you for a while
So I try and be strong,force a fake smile
But you love someone else more than
Your own daughter and son
Her name is Crystal Meth
And you fell right into her trap
That pipe called your name all day and night
She's had a tight grip on you for about 6 years
All of those years are nothing compared to the pain and fear
The fear of dying
Fear of you lying
The fear of your abuse
You were in and out of prison
You didn't even write me once
Everything you've ever said has been lies
You made a choice
You chose the meth over me
Then the meth turned to coke and
You lost your god damn mind
Then when you'd mix them you were gone
You completely lost your sanity
You hit me,lied to me,
You fucking traumatized me
Now you say your sober and I'm suppose to forgive you
Its not that easy, you don't realize what you did to me
It's gonna take a lot more than just getting sober
To ever gain my trust back
And now that your sober this addiction chose a new
Soul to take
Now Crystal Meth took your son
Now my big brother is gone