NO CURE (From the Not Quite a Love Poem Collection)

How could I have missed it...

That Subterranean leak ...oozing from my soul
silently infecting
My good reason...
My good judgment...

Till I believe I hallucinated
The goodness I once saw in you
Somehow...I became... infected

Infected with the rush of the world
Seeking..
Needing to know...

Everything

Instead of taking the time to perfect
a few things....
I lost sight somewhere...
I forgot what was important

I became what I most despised
defeated by the shadow in my mind...
Allowing the darkness
To override good reason.

When I peered into your soul
I became hypnotized by the depths
of your fluid darkness...

Lulled into the Midnight....
Of your Madness...
I danced with you...
Under the pale moons light
Offering up My Essence...

I stared into the Abyss that is You
I let you see my soul
I know you saw no malice there...
Yet...You still hurt me...
You still tried to erase me...

Even though I showed you the truth.
I thought knowing the depth of someone's love
Would enable you to choose...
The right thing
Alas..
Realization sets in...
As surely as a fever...
You were never meant to Love me...
Now I see
There is No Cure for you...
You never intended me
anything ...but harm

You were
Always...
A Deceiver