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The Truth About The Lies: The Reawakening
"I wanted to tell you your not alone on the hurt thing by Alexis. She tried to kill me. . ."
I stare at the words on the screen.
This girl that annoyed Her so much.
This girl that Alexis told me that she tried to kill.
After a while I didn't believe it.
"I molested Amber, well it wasn't me-- It was Daniel, he didn't like her because she was a liar. And so I molested her and than I tried to kill her, she was like in love with me-- Kind of like you are Annie, and she annoyed me. That's why she still hangs around me because she likes me."
The memories of her telling me what she did to a girl named Amber. How this girl would constantly text Alexis all the time, and she never thought for a minute that we'd break up, or that I'd get away from her-- She thought that I would be like the others, either a monster with a heinous crime committed against her or just another ex that she strung along as her friend.
Amber?
The girl that my ex-girlfriend told me for a fact that she tried to kill and molested.
"I wanted to tell you your not alone on the hurt thing by Alexis. She tried to kill me. . ."
She really did try to kill her?
Tears slide down my cheeks.
What was the point of all of this?
Why did she do this to people?
I had just gotten to accept the lies.
To think maybe I was beating a dead horse for way too long.
As "All Too Well" and "Dear John" play in the background, making me remember my own first relationship.
The girl that broke me so hard that I'm still trying to get the pieces back together.
I just noticed that Amber doesn't know how to spell.
Oh well-- She's real.
Not another "Annie Lemay".
Adam told me he never hit her, that she was lying.
Amber says that Alexis tried to kill her, why do I wish that Alexis hadn't been telling the truth about that.
Why did she do this to people?
What about the others what did she do to them?
If I found everyone of them, what stories would they have to tell me.
Andrew says that Conner L. couldn't handle her because she's was too much drama, while Alexis' side of the story says that he said that her problems were too much for him to handle, always the victim and never the monster.
"It wasn't me, it was Daniel. He tried to kill her because she's a liar."
"He said that my problems were too much for him to handle-- I was a rebound anyway, he needs to be dating someone all the time just like me, that's why we're still friends."
"He abused me, he raped me, he molested me with a brush, eye hook--"
"I can't have children because of what Breeanna did."
"I can't have children because of what Adam did."
Stop--
Just stop talking--
Stop living a happy life and going to anime Boston.
Stop reminding me that I loved you, dated you, kissed you, tried to be with you.
That no matter what I would always be the one to fall.
And to think I was going to write you a happy ending.
To think I was going to give your character in "The Story of Us"
a break?
Going to have Ramona break up with Dexter the right way?
With an apology and a good-bye.
No you don't deserve it.
You tried to kill a girl.
You lied about a guy raping you.
You told me that no one understood your problems.
". . . And you'll add my name to a long list of traitors, who don't understand. And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said, run as fast as you can. . ."
Am I the girl that cheated on you?
Am I the new "Breeanna"?
Because Andrew didn't flirt with you, but instead with me.
Because he didn't like a girl like you, that throws herself at guys and than pretends that shamefulness.
That she's innocent.
You're not innocent.
I was the innocent one.
I was new to dating.
And confused about my sexual orientation.
But you don't care--
You'll date anyone.
And probably screw anyone too.
The first guy I slept with I had a family with him.
And we're still together.
We've argued and fought.
And have shed lots of blood and tears.
But we still love each other.
And who are you.
You are the girl that broke my heart.
And because I found love again.
Because I loved again, something you will never, ever do.
You broke me once.
I will not let you see me break a second time.
". . . You're an expert at sorry, and keeping lines blurry. Never impressed by my need, acing your tests. All the girls that you've run dry, have tired, lifeless eyes cause you burned them out. But I took your matches before fire could catch me, so don't look now. I'm shining like fireworks over your sad, empty town. . ."
I hope you read this.
You have another account on here.
And you see this.
And I hope you know that I know.
And one day I'll meet all of your ex's.
And in the end I will have won.
Because I'll know what everyone really thought of you.
And how you really never had any friends.
Because you dated them all.
And the ones you don't date.
Well those are called Justine.
The ones you do date, they're the ones that I'll find.
And you'll be the fool.
The one with the egg on her face.
You'll be the one we'll be laughing at.
Because if you do have another account on here.
I'm not looking for you anymore.
But I know you--
You'll remember me.
And just like you do with all your ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends, you'll come looking for me again.
When you want to make a new boyfriend or girlfriend squirm.
You'll come looking for me.
And you'll find this.
A message waiting for you.
And I hope that girlfriend/boyfriend is sitting beside you.
And they're reading every word of this.
And they know.
They know that I'm warning them.
To get away from you.
Because what they're reading is their future.
". . .I see it all now that you're gone . Don't you think I was too young to be messed with. The girl in the dress wrote you a song, you should have known. . ."
I stare at the words on the screen.
This girl that annoyed Her so much.
This girl that Alexis told me that she tried to kill.
After a while I didn't believe it.
"I molested Amber, well it wasn't me-- It was Daniel, he didn't like her because she was a liar. And so I molested her and than I tried to kill her, she was like in love with me-- Kind of like you are Annie, and she annoyed me. That's why she still hangs around me because she likes me."
The memories of her telling me what she did to a girl named Amber. How this girl would constantly text Alexis all the time, and she never thought for a minute that we'd break up, or that I'd get away from her-- She thought that I would be like the others, either a monster with a heinous crime committed against her or just another ex that she strung along as her friend.
Amber?
The girl that my ex-girlfriend told me for a fact that she tried to kill and molested.
"I wanted to tell you your not alone on the hurt thing by Alexis. She tried to kill me. . ."
She really did try to kill her?
Tears slide down my cheeks.
What was the point of all of this?
Why did she do this to people?
I had just gotten to accept the lies.
To think maybe I was beating a dead horse for way too long.
As "All Too Well" and "Dear John" play in the background, making me remember my own first relationship.
The girl that broke me so hard that I'm still trying to get the pieces back together.
I just noticed that Amber doesn't know how to spell.
Oh well-- She's real.
Not another "Annie Lemay".
Adam told me he never hit her, that she was lying.
Amber says that Alexis tried to kill her, why do I wish that Alexis hadn't been telling the truth about that.
Why did she do this to people?
What about the others what did she do to them?
If I found everyone of them, what stories would they have to tell me.
Andrew says that Conner L. couldn't handle her because she's was too much drama, while Alexis' side of the story says that he said that her problems were too much for him to handle, always the victim and never the monster.
"It wasn't me, it was Daniel. He tried to kill her because she's a liar."
"He said that my problems were too much for him to handle-- I was a rebound anyway, he needs to be dating someone all the time just like me, that's why we're still friends."
"He abused me, he raped me, he molested me with a brush, eye hook--"
"I can't have children because of what Breeanna did."
"I can't have children because of what Adam did."
Stop--
Just stop talking--
Stop living a happy life and going to anime Boston.
Stop reminding me that I loved you, dated you, kissed you, tried to be with you.
That no matter what I would always be the one to fall.
And to think I was going to write you a happy ending.
To think I was going to give your character in "The Story of Us"
a break?
Going to have Ramona break up with Dexter the right way?
With an apology and a good-bye.
No you don't deserve it.
You tried to kill a girl.
You lied about a guy raping you.
You told me that no one understood your problems.
". . . And you'll add my name to a long list of traitors, who don't understand. And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said, run as fast as you can. . ."
Am I the girl that cheated on you?
Am I the new "Breeanna"?
Because Andrew didn't flirt with you, but instead with me.
Because he didn't like a girl like you, that throws herself at guys and than pretends that shamefulness.
That she's innocent.
You're not innocent.
I was the innocent one.
I was new to dating.
And confused about my sexual orientation.
But you don't care--
You'll date anyone.
And probably screw anyone too.
The first guy I slept with I had a family with him.
And we're still together.
We've argued and fought.
And have shed lots of blood and tears.
But we still love each other.
And who are you.
You are the girl that broke my heart.
And because I found love again.
Because I loved again, something you will never, ever do.
You broke me once.
I will not let you see me break a second time.
". . . You're an expert at sorry, and keeping lines blurry. Never impressed by my need, acing your tests. All the girls that you've run dry, have tired, lifeless eyes cause you burned them out. But I took your matches before fire could catch me, so don't look now. I'm shining like fireworks over your sad, empty town. . ."
I hope you read this.
You have another account on here.
And you see this.
And I hope you know that I know.
And one day I'll meet all of your ex's.
And in the end I will have won.
Because I'll know what everyone really thought of you.
And how you really never had any friends.
Because you dated them all.
And the ones you don't date.
Well those are called Justine.
The ones you do date, they're the ones that I'll find.
And you'll be the fool.
The one with the egg on her face.
You'll be the one we'll be laughing at.
Because if you do have another account on here.
I'm not looking for you anymore.
But I know you--
You'll remember me.
And just like you do with all your ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends, you'll come looking for me again.
When you want to make a new boyfriend or girlfriend squirm.
You'll come looking for me.
And you'll find this.
A message waiting for you.
And I hope that girlfriend/boyfriend is sitting beside you.
And they're reading every word of this.
And they know.
They know that I'm warning them.
To get away from you.
Because what they're reading is their future.
". . .I see it all now that you're gone . Don't you think I was too young to be messed with. The girl in the dress wrote you a song, you should have known. . ."
Published 4th Jul 2013
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