An Extreme Urge

I haven't cut in a few months.
I've had urges here and there,
but I've gotten over most of them.
Most of my urges have come from family and friends drama,
but the urge I have now was triggered by something completely mind blowing.

She's suppose to be my friend,
but here she is calling me names in front other students.
This time she's gone to far.
She puts a push pin in her finger,
and waves it around like a flag.

My heart feels like it's being squeezed within someones hand.
I'm growing anxious.
My body is going numb.
I feel like I'm floating.
I used ice to try and bring back my body back to life.
I tried walking around.
The urge to cut is so extreme.
I'm nervous.
I really want to cut.
I've never had an urge like this before.

I was able to get help.
I was able to talk about my urge to cut.
I got the help I needed to not cut.
I'm glad I didn't cut