Giving Up Before Ever Starting

I am suppose to be
Logical, intuitive 
I should have known
I should have noticed
I shouldn't have been
Hypnotized by your curves
Persuaded by your moans
That my mouth had
Burned your fragile lips
I was tempted 
By your looks 
And the feeling
Of someones touch
The feeling of yours

Sometimes I'd pretend
That we were in something
That there was a
Relationship
Between the two of us
I would dream of us
Hand and hand 
Smiling
Being
Happy

It was a lie
Because I am
The monster
I break and destroy
Who could love me?
I can't be the reason
You're broken
I can't do that
I would die 
If I was the reason 
Behind the tears
The fuel that drove
The blade
I couldn't handle that
I couldn't let myself 
Be that reason
Or I will crumble

I can picture it though
Happy and hand in hand
Me and you
Together
But you are too
Important to me
I can't let you
Get entangled 
In my web

I can't let anyone
I care about get
Too close
That's why I am
Destined to end up
Alone
Because I hurt people
When I hurt people
I don't care
When I don't care
I lost you
Or you lost me
Either way
A white flag
Gets raised