I wonder

I grew amongst a dying breed
Reminiscing on bad memories
Wondering if I died today
Would they cherish the way
I lived, laughed and loved
Or would my memory be shoved
Swiftly in the back of minds
And forgotten about over time
Would they ever see the agony
And realize what they had done to me
I wonder
 
I was so very young and dumb, eager to please
Looking to make both parents proud,
Even though my father had anbandoned me
At such a young age, and I vowed
To be different from him, at all cost
looking to mitigate my pain
After my broken heart had defrosted
Asking myself, do I have the strength
To forgive and forget what he did
Is my heart capable, or will the hate continue to wrench
I wonder
 
She now knows the tender side of me
And I'm fallin' quickly, hoping she see
That I am a true man of my word
And'll express the sweetest things, she'd ever heard
Meaning every single word, fallin' from my lips
Envisioning our lives together, with a kiss
Of unconditional love, ready to be release
Risking my heart, offering the key
Cause she now means everything to me
Truth to thought, my heart resides in mississippi
Entering a beautiful summer
With no need to wonder