just a test

Did you know that I would come
Did you even bother to listen
Did you care that in was there
Drowning in my mind
Did you seen the screams
Rising in my throat
You blame me for things
Beyond my control
You say things and I try to refute
but you seem not to hear
So i start to resist
The desire to run
Has become the driving force behind my unease
I spend my time trying to be
Inward I turned
devoid of emotions
I was sleepwalking through my life
You still blame me....
A fuck up of the first degree
Your words however well hidden
Still carry the sting of disgust
Somethings can't be fixed
in this you have to trust