A Girl

 
She's sitting alone
In the schoolyard
Frightened beneath her veil of black
Dark eyes
Long sleeves
Emo freak…

She walks home the long way
To avoid the chaos
The screaming
The violence
She hates it
All she wants is to be free

Alone in her room
The door’s locked
The lights are off
She wants to scream
She wants to sob
But there’s nobody listening

So she holds the blade
To her pure, soft wrists
And adds to the story
Twirling over her arms
She shuts her eyes
And waits to go numb

And when she wakes
There’s blood on her hands
A new line on her wrists
And she remembers again
That today
Is just gonna be the same

Another day
Of taunting, persecutions
Beatings, tears
And her only release
The confusing pattern
Of self-given scars

Nobody understands
They think she’s transparent
An attention seeker
A freak
Who would do that to themselves?
It’s so stupid

Nobody sees the bruises
Feels the pain
Of her confused, tormented mind
Or carries
The oppressive weight
Of her broken heart

She wanders silently through her day
Not saying a word
And nobody even notices
She hides from the cruel words and loneliness
Under the peace of a razor
Behind a closed door

Each day is worse
Less bearable than the last
Self-harm isn’t working
She can’t make the pain go away
It’s over powering
Controlling

Her parents are screaming at each other
Cruel messages shout from the computer screen
She has no one to turn to
She is hopeless, lost
She wants help
But there’s no way of asking for it

The pills are there
Her mothers pain killers
Anti-depressants
237
She runs her fingers through them
The tears slide down her cheeks

Looking at her arms
She doesn’t undertand herself
She only question is why
One by one she swallows them
She makes her final plea,
Free me

In a hospital bed
She lies
A tube at her wrist
A pain in her stomach
Throbbing head
Dry throat

Beside her
Is an old friend
Crying
And holding her hand
Sleeves up, a confession
From a girl that pushed her away

Your not alone
Just search
For what you need
Stop hiding
And running from your fears
Because now I am here

Together
We will make it through
And fuck those judgemental
Ignorant jerks
I’m here
And I understand

And together
They let go of their blades
And were free…