"Family?

I haven't written anything in weeks.
i haven't any words for geeks.
i only have words for us freaks.
what in the hell is that awful sh*t that reeks?
to get inspired i just go and walk the wicked streets.
i know that you know that i know,
i'm a living breathing f**k up.
no fixin' this sh*t,i'm stuck.
neglected & deserted by friends & family.
father holds me a grudge.
because i am a f**k up.
f**k up 4 life.
daily i pray for guidance from god,
or to go ahead and take my life.
i remember when i was younger there was such a thing as family.
nowadays the family is just a distant memory!!!