What Am I?

What am I?
Am I a demon or devil?
A fallen angel?
Just some fellow?
Just another face in the crowd?
Who try to shout out
Never gets too loud?
Am I a sinner
Or am I a saint?
I can think of a million
Things that I ain't.
But what I'm not
Doesn't mean squat.
I need to know what I am.
There is no future
Without a past.
But is this feeling
Going to forever last?
I need to know
Now before I decide to blow.
What am I?
Am I hero or villain?
Am I saving or am I killing?
Am I about to take the pain away,
if even for an hour, if only for a day?
Am I what I want to be?
It is so easy not to be me.
But I have come to the end of my line,
And as you can tell,
I'm not doing fine!
So tell me now before I go away,
And help me make it to another day.
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