Holley Threefifty AKA Ode to Self Destruction

"Self destruction's a warped way of dealing with the pain....self loathing allows you to block anyone else potentially hating u coz then u feel u dint have defend urself &/or ur actions....Ima be self destructive to the bitter end & the self loathings just part of that......deeper n deeper into ur hole, spiraling Down where u feel safe coz when ur down there, no one can hurt u....u do a better job than they ever could"

Self destruction's warped way
dealing with the pain
...self
loathing..
allows you to block
anyone else potentially hating
feeling no..
..need
to defend yourself,
or for that matter your actions

I'm self destructive
to the bitter end
the self loathing,
just hidden camouflage
digging my hole deeper
and still..
..deeper
spiraling,
d
o
 w
  n
to that safe haven
where no one can hurt me..
Like I hurt..
..me.


From a facebook chat between Holley Threefifty and my self, I do hope she joins us one day.