turn around

All along my days of fear,
And lonely nights filled full of tears.

I always feel so all alone,
Even so at my own home.

I prayed to you but never knew,
who I was really praying to.

Praying for guidance, praying for love,
Praying to know what I should do.

I prayed for these most every day,
And patiently waited for you.

I waited and waited for many a day,
But no answers I recieved from you.

So I sat unsure of myself,
Not knowing what to do.

Leaving your fold and love behind,
I started lusting for things of man kind.

Dressing improper, insulting your name,
Believing in fantasy, and wanting more fame.

I'd lie and I'd cheat,
And  play the blame game.

But then I awoke,
and saw through the joke.

I saw what I'd done,
And the distance I'd run.

I felt all alone,
just wanted to go home.

Realizing it was me who left you,
Not you who left me.

You saw what I needed,
Even before I pleaded.

I started to cry,
And cried till I ran dry.

Then got myself up,
And started anew.

I started my long walk ,
All the way back to you.

Into your arms did I fall,
And broke down my invisible wall.

Now I am home, I hope to stay,
If only I allow you to guide my way.