this pain is so real

love truly hurts, this pain is so real, i don't want to think, i  don't want to feel. pain,hate,love there all the same. i just want to hide from this feeling the horror ,the shame.i saw you with him in that time in that place. it took all i had to not punch him in the face. i guess you think i am dumb or maybe just blind. why cant i get you out of my thoughts,my feelings,my mind? i cant change the past it is gone and not real. and i really cant change the way that i feel. there is one thing i can change and that's me. i will be the better man and just let you be. good luck with whatever life's journey brings you way.i will do my best to live my life each and every day................... goodbye