I f'd this up

I might die today
Before I love
Love, love, love
Fucking love.

I hate this feeling
Wondering
If he feels
Anything.
Any. Fucking. Thing.

If I don't know,
Should I care?
He reveals nothing.
It's just
Fucking. Fucking. Fucking.

But I feel. Shit!

I've screwed this up.
When will it be quiet again?