A wish for death

With the rise and the fall of the tree's so divine
there can only be one thing I love
cherry blossoms sway and dance to the rhythm the wind blows
there is only one song I may sing
Let them free, sparkling fairy's shedding light to darkened clouds
let it be known a princess can never be saved by her true love after he saves her from the towering castle she rests in
when the rain falls down, I'm on my knees
praying for only one reason
pleading with heart
rinse my sanity away
I ache to feel the vibrations of thunder
I scream to see the lightning
I want to be free
but it gets stuck in my throat
I choke on the feelings I wish to express
but they cut off all air to my brain
and I can't think
Oh, dear I can't function
with normality
though it looks like
(because of my need)
my wish has been granted
God has eviscerated me.
I'm turning pale and red
but I'm coming,
coming to the new world.
I'm coming clean.