Spacebound~

Wanting to find any way possible to escape.
Desperate to be gone.
I've never been one to do reckless things.
Until I wanted to feel.
Taking every pill I have.
Not even caring what it is,
Or what it will do to me.
Anything
To feel.
I was feeling depressed and lonely.
I took one today.
I was out if it,
I was spacebound.
But sadly, still here.
Not conscious.
But still here.
Not hurting.
But still here.
Sometimes I find myself wishing that
Someday, I might "accidentally" take a little too much.
Go a little too far.
Go a little too deep.
Cry a little too much.
Feel a little too hard.
It's going to be okay.
I'm fine.