Addiction

This life I lead
And lessons learned
I ponder this
As I cook and burn

Never again
This way I will turn
I ponder this
As I shoot and go numb

What am I doing
This is not me
I know so much better
I want to be free

Tomorrow Ill quit
I will just be strong
I know I can do it
It wont take long

I wake to first thoughts
The calling wont go
I caved in a little
I fucked up I know

A little a little
To then a lot and a lot
Why am I doing this
Why cant I stop

Give me a new drug
Give me a pill
Then I can stop it
I know that I will

Life is so short
But the day is so long
Why do I do it      
When I know its so wrong

Ill cut off my fingers
And all of my toes
Then I cant touch it
Or walk where it goes

My mind will think
My eyes will see
Upon my death
I'll finally be free