The First 24

It came to me in the back seat of a friends Toyota
Lying sideways propped up against the arm rest
My head was spinning as the street lights swirled
A life altering realization that has come late
I need a new direction, some kind of change
There’s something I’ve been doing wrong all along
I figured it was pointless, I couldn’t help myself
The drinking, the cutting, the everlasting sadness
Waiting for the darkness to consume my soul
Draw my last breath and just let it all go
But I turned down a bottle today. My first step
24 hours without even getting buzzed. Amazing
Spent time with my family, called old friends
Sad how the simple things get neglected with abuse
I took things a little more seriously, I want to live!
So many things I could have done to better my self
I just threw them all away, I’m not worthy of it
Watched everybody leave, and my life ruin
That all changes today as I take my first step
I need to slow this train down, slam on the brakes
I’m still young and I know I can make the transition
Back to someone who was fun to be around
It certainly won’t be easy, this isn’t some over nighter
I definitely won’t be a complete sober, I still love my beer
But at least I have a goal, now that I see a little more clear