Submissions by soullessexpression (I--)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I am happily healing as of current. My work comes from raw in the moment materials. I hope my work reaches people who are struggling. Please know you are not alone. I know its rough right now but please keep going. Just keep breathing.
SELF POEM
Published
7th Mar 2017 8:26am
7th Mar 2017 8:26am
Self Vulturing
What have I done
Breathing in fire when I work
Breathing barely when I speak to blood
Breath stoping when I think of you
This skin I barely fit in
Sewn together with barb wire
Is it to keep things out or keep something in
And stuffed with tablet meth
To give me a new face
Inside and out
What was it all for
I cant live on my own
Or with others
someone gets hurt
Id rather it be me
Others hurt me recklessly
It is their will
And I am a host
A body...
Breathing in fire when I work
Breathing barely when I speak to blood
Breath stoping when I think of you
This skin I barely fit in
Sewn together with barb wire
Is it to keep things out or keep something in
And stuffed with tablet meth
To give me a new face
Inside and out
What was it all for
I cant live on my own
Or with others
someone gets hurt
Id rather it be me
Others hurt me recklessly
It is their will
And I am a host
A body...
509 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
30th Dec 2016 8:26am
30th Dec 2016 8:26am
I'm Really Sorry I Was Right This Time
Here I am
Ready to hurt myself again
Poems make me feel better
Let me release it
I'm here because I was wrong
And
I should have listened when you warned me
Lifeline
Timeline
Different paces
Mess up the relationships
I regret where I am now
But I honestly don't have anywhere to go
I dont have a home "home"
I have makeshift safe spots
Because I was always running
From here to there
I don't sleep comfortably anymore
Anywhere
When I left I did nothing ...
Ready to hurt myself again
Poems make me feel better
Let me release it
I'm here because I was wrong
And
I should have listened when you warned me
Lifeline
Timeline
Different paces
Mess up the relationships
I regret where I am now
But I honestly don't have anywhere to go
I dont have a home "home"
I have makeshift safe spots
Because I was always running
From here to there
I don't sleep comfortably anymore
Anywhere
When I left I did nothing ...
564 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
25th Nov 2016 3:18am
25th Nov 2016 3:18am
Smoke and Ash
What a rage
The monsters we fight
"You go...I go"
And with these simple words
You inhand held a power over me no one else could fathom
Come now
Smile for me
No worries
All this time I believe with such ease
Come now
Dont give me those eyes
I know you see straight through me
My appearence is gruesome
You're playing with fire
I warn, lowering my head
Even those who have once cared so greatly
Ask the question
"Are you even human?"
A simple no would surffice ...
The monsters we fight
"You go...I go"
And with these simple words
You inhand held a power over me no one else could fathom
Come now
Smile for me
No worries
All this time I believe with such ease
Come now
Dont give me those eyes
I know you see straight through me
My appearence is gruesome
You're playing with fire
I warn, lowering my head
Even those who have once cared so greatly
Ask the question
"Are you even human?"
A simple no would surffice ...
529 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Nov 2016 9:55pm
9th Nov 2016 9:55pm
Too Proud to Die
Strong and alone
Rumors talk and spread like an STD
Infecting them with caution and fear for me
We are all too damn blind to see
At least your broken with me
I'm too tough to break or bend
Really just want to head back to the north end
Late night garage cigerette
About as bad as it's gonna get
Build me up
Out of blood, bone and gold
Swear sometimes I can't be broken
Untouchable me
Already been hurt by everything
Ain't proud
Ain't scared
Only thing I am ...
Rumors talk and spread like an STD
Infecting them with caution and fear for me
We are all too damn blind to see
At least your broken with me
I'm too tough to break or bend
Really just want to head back to the north end
Late night garage cigerette
About as bad as it's gonna get
Build me up
Out of blood, bone and gold
Swear sometimes I can't be broken
Untouchable me
Already been hurt by everything
Ain't proud
Ain't scared
Only thing I am ...
536 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
4th Oct 2016 7:23am
4th Oct 2016 7:23am
What a Dream You Are
Brand new was I
To the enviorment
To the sound
And to you
You walked in
Frustrated and upset
Not caring,
In your own dark world for a life
But then
Just then
It felt like a head on collision
Metal to Metal
The earth had stoped moving and broke apart
Your eyes were on mine
Locked
The whole room lost air
You took my hand
And with your pale bone worn hands
You sent immense lightning through my very veins
And like that we melded together ...
To the enviorment
To the sound
And to you
You walked in
Frustrated and upset
Not caring,
In your own dark world for a life
But then
Just then
It felt like a head on collision
Metal to Metal
The earth had stoped moving and broke apart
Your eyes were on mine
Locked
The whole room lost air
You took my hand
And with your pale bone worn hands
You sent immense lightning through my very veins
And like that we melded together ...
859 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
24th Aug 2016 11:16am
24th Aug 2016 11:16am
Listen..Listen...Stop Screaming
If they told you to watch out around me
You were told right
See bad people dont know they are bad
Some people only know they do bad things
See now I
Am the type of person that will get you addicted
To me
See i'll make sure you hate things
Places we have been together
Or songs you loved
I am damaged
Thus I will hurt you
I am the very person who convinced you up to this rooftop tonight
So text me
Or email me
Or write me notes
But they warned you ...
You were told right
See bad people dont know they are bad
Some people only know they do bad things
See now I
Am the type of person that will get you addicted
To me
See i'll make sure you hate things
Places we have been together
Or songs you loved
I am damaged
Thus I will hurt you
I am the very person who convinced you up to this rooftop tonight
So text me
Or email me
Or write me notes
But they warned you ...
538 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
18th Aug 2016 11:32am
18th Aug 2016 11:32am
You'd Want What's Best Too At 3:26 AM
It's 3 in the morning
And my head has become dark
Like sickeningly
I try to stay happy and listen to music
But a song comes on and my head just
"Psst...it's them"
I remember how much you loved those other people
And then it avalanches to. "psst.. stupid, he is with other girls now"
And my stomach collapses
And I feel my thighs scratch and tense and tingle
And I remember
Oh I remember everything...
Every word and sound
Every touch and whisper
And I picture them on someone else...
And my head has become dark
Like sickeningly
I try to stay happy and listen to music
But a song comes on and my head just
"Psst...it's them"
I remember how much you loved those other people
And then it avalanches to. "psst.. stupid, he is with other girls now"
And my stomach collapses
And I feel my thighs scratch and tense and tingle
And I remember
Oh I remember everything...
Every word and sound
Every touch and whisper
And I picture them on someone else...
533 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
14th Aug 2016 8:38am
14th Aug 2016 8:38am
Dead To Worse
I did have a boy back in Kansas
A beautiful boy who was sweet
But he was a monster underneath
I loved him dearly
He couldn't help me
I was dying slowly
My mental was decayed
my love was fading to nothing
So slowly I did fade...
My heart is now with his
At the bottom of the earth
So now I'll sit and stay
Waiting on my hearse.
A beautiful boy who was sweet
But he was a monster underneath
I loved him dearly
He couldn't help me
I was dying slowly
My mental was decayed
my love was fading to nothing
So slowly I did fade...
My heart is now with his
At the bottom of the earth
So now I'll sit and stay
Waiting on my hearse.
504 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
19th Jun 2016 10:45am
19th Jun 2016 10:45am
Split the Skin
Why am I crying
I did this
I can't stop crying
It's eating at my stomach
My throats closing up
And my skin iches and crawls to the sound of its own
destruction
Lately it doesnt scream as much
"I'm getting better"
I dont feel any better
Anymore i'm just
Angry
I want to crush my bones alot
I want them to snap in car doors
Or break my fist into a mirror
I want to break it down so much that i can crawl out
I know i did this to myself
All for a mistake i made in january
...
I did this
I can't stop crying
It's eating at my stomach
My throats closing up
And my skin iches and crawls to the sound of its own
destruction
Lately it doesnt scream as much
"I'm getting better"
I dont feel any better
Anymore i'm just
Angry
I want to crush my bones alot
I want them to snap in car doors
Or break my fist into a mirror
I want to break it down so much that i can crawl out
I know i did this to myself
All for a mistake i made in january
...
439 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Mar 2016 7:05am
27th Mar 2016 7:05am
Born Wrong
The hardest words i've had to say
What were they
I'm sorry I wasn't born right
In the end it didn't matter if I was a boy or a girl or even both
my mother still drank
and my dad took alot of convincing
And now
I believe
I've ruined you too
What were they
I'm sorry I wasn't born right
In the end it didn't matter if I was a boy or a girl or even both
my mother still drank
and my dad took alot of convincing
And now
I believe
I've ruined you too
528 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
24th Mar 2016 3:21pm
24th Mar 2016 3:21pm
Because of You
An empty white room
Thats all thats left by now
After your
So called break down
Because of you
My children are with new moms
My children had their comfortable lives stolen from under them
By a depressant
Old liquor boxes
Gunk layered tape
Anymore when im gone
I want to drive
Just drive
Just drive untill im so far away from you
Because of you
I wanted to be free
I would have hurt anything
Anyone
To be free and get out alive
But I...
Thats all thats left by now
After your
So called break down
Because of you
My children are with new moms
My children had their comfortable lives stolen from under them
By a depressant
Old liquor boxes
Gunk layered tape
Anymore when im gone
I want to drive
Just drive
Just drive untill im so far away from you
Because of you
I wanted to be free
I would have hurt anything
Anyone
To be free and get out alive
But I...
615 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Mar 2016 4:55am
7th Mar 2016 4:55am
5 AM News
Bright kitchen lights
4 AM nights
26 letter having strings
Sent to friends along seas
A friend
A friend in need
Hurting, scratching
Lights flickering
How do I stop something from screaming
Not to sound alarming
Make it dead
Little did they know
It's inside my head
4:30 AM
BOOM...boom...
The lights went out.
4 AM nights
26 letter having strings
Sent to friends along seas
A friend
A friend in need
Hurting, scratching
Lights flickering
How do I stop something from screaming
Not to sound alarming
Make it dead
Little did they know
It's inside my head
4:30 AM
BOOM...boom...
The lights went out.
469 reads
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