Submissions by shelbythicke
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
8th Nov 2024 3:15am
8th Nov 2024 3:15am
Beheaded
Too many thoughts, not enough words
Too many emotions, not enough…
Not enough time, not enough strength
a failure in my mind, beheaded- my own crime.
Loss of hope, loss of joy
alone in the struggle, a wounded soldier
a mental war leaves me bruised and broken
weeping, screaming, pleading
too many thoughts, too many words.
Shut the fuck up.
No one can hear you
and if they could, they wouldn’t care.
alone in my grief
grinding my teeth
too many emotions
never enough.
Too many emotions, not enough…
Not enough time, not enough strength
a failure in my mind, beheaded- my own crime.
Loss of hope, loss of joy
alone in the struggle, a wounded soldier
a mental war leaves me bruised and broken
weeping, screaming, pleading
too many thoughts, too many words.
Shut the fuck up.
No one can hear you
and if they could, they wouldn’t care.
alone in my grief
grinding my teeth
too many emotions
never enough.
#emptiness
#sadness
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Mar 2019 4:17am
14th Mar 2019 4:17am
Low
how does one know when they've had enough
because for months
and weeks
and for days
including this very one
i have reached points
that have felt like stabs
my head is pulsing
stop, stop, stop
this life is not bad
I've seen my share of yellows and baby blues
"it is what you make of it"
but how can i possibly see a rainbow
through these blurry eyes
please
I wasn't born to be colorblind
because for months
and weeks
and for days
including this very one
i have reached points
that have felt like stabs
my head is pulsing
stop, stop, stop
this life is not bad
I've seen my share of yellows and baby blues
"it is what you make of it"
but how can i possibly see a rainbow
through these blurry eyes
please
I wasn't born to be colorblind
#depression
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SELF POEM
Published
4th Mar 2019 00:44am
4th Mar 2019 00:44am
Enlightened
the heart that breaks
is the heart that heals
and time does not decide
when
or how
or where
but time does stop
and allows us to look
through the open eye
the mind
discovering a love
undiscoverable by he
by they
but by me
I see clearly now
and
the healing begins
is the heart that heals
and time does not decide
when
or how
or where
but time does stop
and allows us to look
through the open eye
the mind
discovering a love
undiscoverable by he
by they
but by me
I see clearly now
and
the healing begins
#SelfWorth
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LOVE POEM
Published
26th Dec 2018 4:48pm
26th Dec 2018 4:48pm
Sunbeam
The air is crisp
and I am so cold
I wish the sun would shine down on me
but
right now
I suppose i'm just not worthy
of its warmth
I find myself often feeling this way
to be quite honest with you
sometimes I wish
I couldn't feel anything
that's impossible though
because I'll forever feel
too much
am I cursed?
why can't he understand
that I hurt
every time he changes his tone with me
looks at me
like i'm a foreign disease
tells me that I can't
and that I don't
love him ...
and I am so cold
I wish the sun would shine down on me
but
right now
I suppose i'm just not worthy
of its warmth
I find myself often feeling this way
to be quite honest with you
sometimes I wish
I couldn't feel anything
that's impossible though
because I'll forever feel
too much
am I cursed?
why can't he understand
that I hurt
every time he changes his tone with me
looks at me
like i'm a foreign disease
tells me that I can't
and that I don't
love him ...
#loneliness
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Nov 2018 6:01am
12th Nov 2018 6:01am
Rain
thunder shaking the windows
light flashing through the blinds
the sky is weeping
and
the air is cold
my mind is awake
and it’s thinking of you
as it always does
as I always do
light flashing through the blinds
the sky is weeping
and
the air is cold
my mind is awake
and it’s thinking of you
as it always does
as I always do
#storm
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LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Oct 2018 2:48am
23rd Oct 2018 2:48am
Endless
there is something
that I'm quite addicted to
is it the way
that you say my name
or the way
you fill me with love
that was made for me
the way your hair
drenched and heavy
falls into my eyes
as you hover above me
the way your skin
sticks to mine
like we are bound
like we are glued
my insides are stirring
a population
of a trillion butterflies
sweet honey
warmed between my thighs
my sweet sweet boy
what have you done to me
I promise
to be yours ...
that I'm quite addicted to
is it the way
that you say my name
or the way
you fill me with love
that was made for me
the way your hair
drenched and heavy
falls into my eyes
as you hover above me
the way your skin
sticks to mine
like we are bound
like we are glued
my insides are stirring
a population
of a trillion butterflies
sweet honey
warmed between my thighs
my sweet sweet boy
what have you done to me
I promise
to be yours ...
#lover
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LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Oct 2018 2:35am
23rd Oct 2018 2:35am
Saccharine
he sits next to me
and smiles
I lower my head
this does not dissuade him
as he asks,
"is there meaning to life?"
from there,
the conversation drags
as he goes on and on
about the absence of objective truth
and how life
is ultimately meaningless
I intently focus on his mouth
all the while envisioning
how it would taste on mine
he continues to speak
but I can no longer bare it
I put my finger against his lips
holding it there for a few seconds
and say, "If I kiss...
and smiles
I lower my head
this does not dissuade him
as he asks,
"is there meaning to life?"
from there,
the conversation drags
as he goes on and on
about the absence of objective truth
and how life
is ultimately meaningless
I intently focus on his mouth
all the while envisioning
how it would taste on mine
he continues to speak
but I can no longer bare it
I put my finger against his lips
holding it there for a few seconds
and say, "If I kiss...
#lover
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Sep 2018 5:15pm
20th Sep 2018 5:15pm
Irregular
I did not know that I was capable of this
heart, why do you ache?
did you forget why you beat?
we're a team here
you supply me with life
I supply you with love
I mess up, I do
but sometimes so do you
i'm trying so hard to be less clumsy
but you're addicted to the fall
help me, dear heart
so that I may help you
and please
do not give up
we'll be okay
heart, why do you ache?
did you forget why you beat?
we're a team here
you supply me with life
I supply you with love
I mess up, I do
but sometimes so do you
i'm trying so hard to be less clumsy
but you're addicted to the fall
help me, dear heart
so that I may help you
and please
do not give up
we'll be okay
#relationships
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Sep 2018 8:39pm
19th Sep 2018 8:39pm
Why
I can't fathom this feeling
my heart is cracking
my head is ringing
my eyes swell but cry, they do not
why does this feel normal to me
what have I done
and
what do I do
I drowned in you while you splashed around in me
playfully with no regard
until I evaporated into the air
that you refuse to breathe
tell me why
why I am not enough
my heart is cracking
my head is ringing
my eyes swell but cry, they do not
why does this feel normal to me
what have I done
and
what do I do
I drowned in you while you splashed around in me
playfully with no regard
until I evaporated into the air
that you refuse to breathe
tell me why
why I am not enough
#loneliness
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
15th Aug 2018 4:46am
15th Aug 2018 4:46am
Blue
hold me
ever so tightly
and don't let go
take me to bed
let me rest my head upon your chest
wrap your arms around me
let us fit together
as if we were one
like our fingers intertwined
and hearts entangled
let our bodies flow like a song
that only heaven above can hear so fine
tell me that you love me
so I can project the same
and that you are forever mine
I am falling into you
like the waves crashing upon the shore in my soul
our collision shakes and breaks the tides between us
now,
let us fall...
ever so tightly
and don't let go
take me to bed
let me rest my head upon your chest
wrap your arms around me
let us fit together
as if we were one
like our fingers intertwined
and hearts entangled
let our bodies flow like a song
that only heaven above can hear so fine
tell me that you love me
so I can project the same
and that you are forever mine
I am falling into you
like the waves crashing upon the shore in my soul
our collision shakes and breaks the tides between us
now,
let us fall...
#lover
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Jul 2018 2:36am
27th Jul 2018 2:36am
Caffeine
I have an infuriating headache
and annoyed I am, but upset I'm not
is it the stress, is it the uncertainty?
no, it's the caffeine
the espresso that makes you scrunch your eyes
mixed with the sweetest vanilla cream
a cold brew for my cold heart
and annoyed I am, but upset I'm not
is it the stress, is it the uncertainty?
no, it's the caffeine
the espresso that makes you scrunch your eyes
mixed with the sweetest vanilla cream
a cold brew for my cold heart
#anxiety
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Jul 2018 10:34pm
25th Jul 2018 10:34pm
Enough
I am a heap of emotions
a collection of thoughts that resign in my subconscious
allowing me to breathe
but suffocating my strength
my growth and my progression
a dauntless love for a life I do not have
a nasty habit that I have failed time and time to quit
but i've had enough
no longer will I
no longer
when is enough enough?
the moment you come to terms with all of this
the clarity
the moment between now
and between I
enough is enough
enough for me
a collection of thoughts that resign in my subconscious
allowing me to breathe
but suffocating my strength
my growth and my progression
a dauntless love for a life I do not have
a nasty habit that I have failed time and time to quit
but i've had enough
no longer will I
no longer
when is enough enough?
the moment you come to terms with all of this
the clarity
the moment between now
and between I
enough is enough
enough for me
#hope
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