Submissions by screams4you

As I walk into the room
There are poeple all around
As they talk among themselves
I am pushed off to the corner
Do they hear me when I talk?
Do they notice when I am there?
Can they see my silent tears?
.........The anwser is no
I am invisible to them
As they walk past
Its like, I'm not even there
Everyday its the same shit over again
Sometimes I wonder if its worth living for
Will they notice if I'm gone?
Will they care?
Will they be glad?
I try to think somebody will care
But as the day goes by
I may be wrong
They...

How long do I have to stay in this world?
Day after day, I want to leave it all behind
To just give up on life
Leaving means, saying goodbye
To those I love
I could pretend it was an accident
That my thin cold knife, went too deep
No one would ever know
I could escape life
Do I really want to die?
Give up everything I have?
Its my decision,  no one's else
No one can take my gift away
That will get me to freedom
I will end my life today
And forever I will be free
From the hell I live in

The rush of feeling I get
As I think of the blade in my room
Thinking of how it feels
The cold.... Sharp metal
Slashing through my skin
Dark red blood dripping from my fingertips
Letting all my thoughts go
Deciding how deep I go?
A lot or a little?
This sick temptation is great
I love feeling the rush I get
As the blade comes slashing through
There's to much blood
The smell is to much
As I start to black out
I know this temptation is great