Submissions by samscout90

So this is it
how it has to be?
Some friend
betrayer and backstabber.
Hope it was
worth this anger and hate
that you bred so softly
tenderly.

Here I am again, in the hot desert sun. Joking with my driver on the net and watching the hilltops. Smoke and fire everywhere, noise filling my soul. A friends scream and then there's blood, so much God-damn blood. My gun, disabled. I drop down to render aid, cannot save him. He screams their names, begs the divine to intervene. I cradle his head in my arms, my hands are not towels and I AM TOO YOUNG FOR THIS but he is my friend and I need to cannot save him. I awake again in my bed, covered in sweat mixed with my tears.

This was not easy, the sharing of my experience. Of my shame....

Was I Will I
Ever be enough
For you me us
Was I Will I
Ever even at least
Taste of regret
Was I Will I
Be destined to
Be forgotten too