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UNREAL
he's so irresistible,
and i'm so amazed.
i hardly know him,
yet still, i'm his slave.
i have no regrets
and i can't deny
i'd do anything for him.
for him, i'm not shy.
for him, i'm a whore,
i'm a total slut.
for him, i don't care,
i just don't give a fuck.
he's too good to be true,
i can't get enough.
he's purely a dream,
have i made him up?
i have no shame,
i have no remorse.
and it's not just because
he's hung like a horse.
it's not just because
he's so fucking hot
or because...
and i'm so amazed.
i hardly know him,
yet still, i'm his slave.
i have no regrets
and i can't deny
i'd do anything for him.
for him, i'm not shy.
for him, i'm a whore,
i'm a total slut.
for him, i don't care,
i just don't give a fuck.
he's too good to be true,
i can't get enough.
he's purely a dream,
have i made him up?
i have no shame,
i have no remorse.
and it's not just because
he's hung like a horse.
it's not just because
he's so fucking hot
or because...
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FANTASY
i know that i'm racist
and i know that its wrong,
but when i see a black man
i get so turned on.
i just can't help myself,
i can't help what i like.
the darker the skin
the more i fantasize.
i like hair on a man
and i love dreadlocks.
but i also like bald men,
dmx is sooo hot!
and tyler the creator,
oh my god!
all of my boyfriends
have always been white.
i guess that is why
things didn't work out right.
i dream about finding
a man with dark skin
that wants a girl
much lighter than...
and i know that its wrong,
but when i see a black man
i get so turned on.
i just can't help myself,
i can't help what i like.
the darker the skin
the more i fantasize.
i like hair on a man
and i love dreadlocks.
but i also like bald men,
dmx is sooo hot!
and tyler the creator,
oh my god!
all of my boyfriends
have always been white.
i guess that is why
things didn't work out right.
i dream about finding
a man with dark skin
that wants a girl
much lighter than...
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HIGHER STANDARDS
you are now the standard
that i will use
to judge all other men by.
you have changed my views.
i'm just not used
to being treated like that.
i'm used to being
called ugly and fat,
and being made to do things
that i don't want to do,
and putting up with that shit
because i felt that i had to.
it's not like that with you,
you're too fucking nice.
your compliments embarrass me,
almost make me cry.
i was so surprised
when you called me back.
i just thought we hooked up
and that was that.
i'm...
that i will use
to judge all other men by.
you have changed my views.
i'm just not used
to being treated like that.
i'm used to being
called ugly and fat,
and being made to do things
that i don't want to do,
and putting up with that shit
because i felt that i had to.
it's not like that with you,
you're too fucking nice.
your compliments embarrass me,
almost make me cry.
i was so surprised
when you called me back.
i just thought we hooked up
and that was that.
i'm...
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f**k YOU
you say i'm better than that,
than what you saw me with.
well, what does that mean?
i'm really curious.
first off, i was with a man,
not a thing.
a man you've never met
and of whom you know nothing.
so what do you mean
by "i'm better than that"?
do you mean i shouldn't be with him
because he is black?
well then fuck you
you cracker-ass bigoted bitch.
keep your comments to yourself.
no one wants to hear that shit.
but you know what i am better than?
i'm better than you.
and all the other...
than what you saw me with.
well, what does that mean?
i'm really curious.
first off, i was with a man,
not a thing.
a man you've never met
and of whom you know nothing.
so what do you mean
by "i'm better than that"?
do you mean i shouldn't be with him
because he is black?
well then fuck you
you cracker-ass bigoted bitch.
keep your comments to yourself.
no one wants to hear that shit.
but you know what i am better than?
i'm better than you.
and all the other...
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WHAT CAN I SAY?
it's true.
i'm a whore.
i don't care.
i just want more.
i know i'm selfish.
i don't care.
i will use you
as long as you're there.
but it's okay,
you use me too.
we're good like that,
me and you.
there is no drama,
there are no fights.
how can this situation
be anything but right?
we have no jealousy,
no mistrust.
it's the perfect relationship-
we just get high and fuck.
i'm a whore.
i don't care.
i just want more.
i know i'm selfish.
i don't care.
i will use you
as long as you're there.
but it's okay,
you use me too.
we're good like that,
me and you.
there is no drama,
there are no fights.
how can this situation
be anything but right?
we have no jealousy,
no mistrust.
it's the perfect relationship-
we just get high and fuck.
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HAPPY THOUGHTS 2
fuck what you say,
i know the truth.
fuck what you say,
you know it too.
but that no one believed me
when i finally spoke,
hurt me so bad
i wished i'd never told.
it kind of felt like
it was happening again.
just one more experience
for me to relive.
but fuck it
compared to what you'll go through
my torment was faster.
because karma's a bitch
and the devil's a bastard.
you'll meet them both,
even if i have to introduce you.
patience is also a bitch,
and we're having issues.
i don't just...
i know the truth.
fuck what you say,
you know it too.
but that no one believed me
when i finally spoke,
hurt me so bad
i wished i'd never told.
it kind of felt like
it was happening again.
just one more experience
for me to relive.
but fuck it
compared to what you'll go through
my torment was faster.
because karma's a bitch
and the devil's a bastard.
you'll meet them both,
even if i have to introduce you.
patience is also a bitch,
and we're having issues.
i don't just...
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THE SAD TRUTH
my sex life is a crime scene.
it wasn't all bad... just mostly.
i've chosen to fuck with fewer men
than have chosen... to fuck... with me.
it wasn't all bad... just mostly.
i've chosen to fuck with fewer men
than have chosen... to fuck... with me.
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MOMMA
nobody knew it, nobody could tell
the amount that she drank, she hid it well.
but then she got sick and she couldn't deny
that she was ill, that she was going to die.
the thought of it happening is so hard to bear
and so hard to ignore, it is always there.
how long will she live? no one can say.
it could be years or a matter of days.
at times i still cry, at times i'm still mad
this shit's so fucked up, it's so fucking sad.
but slowly, so slowly, i learned to be strong
no matter what, she is still my mom.
the amount that she drank, she hid it well.
but then she got sick and she couldn't deny
that she was ill, that she was going to die.
the thought of it happening is so hard to bear
and so hard to ignore, it is always there.
how long will she live? no one can say.
it could be years or a matter of days.
at times i still cry, at times i'm still mad
this shit's so fucked up, it's so fucking sad.
but slowly, so slowly, i learned to be strong
no matter what, she is still my mom.
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NOW I'M A WHORE
i love every lie
that passes your lips.
i can't explain why,
that's just how it is.
the things that you say to me
i've heard before,
but i never believed it,
not one fucking word.
i have hated my hair
my entire life,
though so many people
have told me its nice.
for whatever reason
to hear that from you
affects me so deeply
you just have no clue.
now i'm actually happy
that my hair is red.
because i know thats the reason
you ended up in my bed.
but when you tell me i'm hot,
i still...
that passes your lips.
i can't explain why,
that's just how it is.
the things that you say to me
i've heard before,
but i never believed it,
not one fucking word.
i have hated my hair
my entire life,
though so many people
have told me its nice.
for whatever reason
to hear that from you
affects me so deeply
you just have no clue.
now i'm actually happy
that my hair is red.
because i know thats the reason
you ended up in my bed.
but when you tell me i'm hot,
i still...
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REALIZATION
you've never suffered,
i can tell by your ways.
that's why you judge me so,
you don't know fear or pain.
you don't understand me
and i hope you never do.
but i know how you are
because i used to be just like you.
i've been through hell
an i've known true fear.
i've felt real pain
and i've cried real tears.
but had i never felt that
i wouldn't be as strong
as i am now.
it was worth it after all.
i'm no longer stupid,
no longer naive.
i know better than to think
it can't happen to me.
i can tell by your ways.
that's why you judge me so,
you don't know fear or pain.
you don't understand me
and i hope you never do.
but i know how you are
because i used to be just like you.
i've been through hell
an i've known true fear.
i've felt real pain
and i've cried real tears.
but had i never felt that
i wouldn't be as strong
as i am now.
it was worth it after all.
i'm no longer stupid,
no longer naive.
i know better than to think
it can't happen to me.
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GODDAMN
the look in his eyes, the touch of his lips,
the sight of his body, the feel of his dick...
i still can't believe that he wanted me!
that man was so far out of my league.
did it really happen or was it a dream?
he was the perfect embodiment of my fantasy.
the things that he did to me, oh goddamn!
i never believed i would meet such a man.
he was completely impossible to resist,
and even more impossible to forget.
everything about him made me so weak.
i got so lost in him i forgot to think.
i was hesitant to act, but...
the sight of his body, the feel of his dick...
i still can't believe that he wanted me!
that man was so far out of my league.
did it really happen or was it a dream?
he was the perfect embodiment of my fantasy.
the things that he did to me, oh goddamn!
i never believed i would meet such a man.
he was completely impossible to resist,
and even more impossible to forget.
everything about him made me so weak.
i got so lost in him i forgot to think.
i was hesitant to act, but...
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IF ONLY YOU KNEW...
am i that amusing?
am i so strange
you feel the need to watch me,
yet no need to explain?
why?
i may not be normal,
but who the fuck are you?
i have my reasons,
if only you knew...
am i so strange
you feel the need to watch me,
yet no need to explain?
why?
i may not be normal,
but who the fuck are you?
i have my reasons,
if only you knew...
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