Submissions by msbeav (Brenda)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DRUGS POEM
Published
7th Sep 2020 2:46am
7th Sep 2020 2:46am
Kill The Pain
Kill the pain.
Stimulate the brain.
Watch as I go completely insane.
Can I hide my shame?
Am I the one to blame?
Maybe yes
Maybe no
I chose to play this game
But I did it to kill the pain.
Stimulate the brain.
Watch as I go completely insane.
Can I hide my shame?
Am I the one to blame?
Maybe yes
Maybe no
I chose to play this game
But I did it to kill the pain.
#emotions
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
12th Jun 2020 10:01pm
12th Jun 2020 10:01pm
Tired
Im tired
Tired of hearing words like ...
Time heals everything.
Time will never heal this empty place called my heart.
Tired of hearing ...
She loves you, you're her mom and you cannot be replaced.
Hmm ... seems I'm not only replaceable but disposable too.
I'm so tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending to be happy.
Tired of being strong and holding back the tears.
Truth is - I'm lost.
This pain is unbearable
I can hardly breathe.
I'm so very, very tired.
Tired of hearing words like ...
Time heals everything.
Time will never heal this empty place called my heart.
Tired of hearing ...
She loves you, you're her mom and you cannot be replaced.
Hmm ... seems I'm not only replaceable but disposable too.
I'm so tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending to be happy.
Tired of being strong and holding back the tears.
Truth is - I'm lost.
This pain is unbearable
I can hardly breathe.
I'm so very, very tired.
#grief
#frustration
#despair
#disappointment
#emptiness
367 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Jan 2020 2:07pm
16th Jan 2020 2:07pm
Think
Stare at the ceiling
Think
No - Nothing
Roll
Chin to Sheet
Stare at the pillow
Think
Memories
Uncomfortable
Stir crazy
Go outside
Smoke
Bored. Bored. Bored
Eyes tired
Lay down
Stare at the ceiling
Think
Think
No - Nothing
Roll
Chin to Sheet
Stare at the pillow
Think
Memories
Uncomfortable
Stir crazy
Go outside
Smoke
Bored. Bored. Bored
Eyes tired
Lay down
Stare at the ceiling
Think
#confessional
#memories
#acceptance
#emptiness
#choices
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Jan 2020 10:57pm
14th Jan 2020 10:57pm
I Want
I want to go somewhere with you, just a little place that no one else can see.
I want you to tell me all of your stories,all of your dreams and all of your doubts.
And then I'll tell you mine.
I want to take you away, somewhere beautiful and mysterious.
I want to watch your eyes as you look around,
looking at new places, new people and new scenery.
And then I'll smile at the wonder in them.
I want to celebrate with you, doesn't matter what it is.
I want to hear your laugh, see your eyes sparkle, and listen to your excitement.
And then I'll announce...
I want you to tell me all of your stories,all of your dreams and all of your doubts.
And then I'll tell you mine.
I want to take you away, somewhere beautiful and mysterious.
I want to watch your eyes as you look around,
looking at new places, new people and new scenery.
And then I'll smile at the wonder in them.
I want to celebrate with you, doesn't matter what it is.
I want to hear your laugh, see your eyes sparkle, and listen to your excitement.
And then I'll announce...
#happiness
#kindness
#hope
#inspirational
#gratitude
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Jan 2020 6:10am
4th Jan 2020 6:10am
Wake Up
Wake up Brandi
Wake up from this tragedy.
Breathe
Return to reality.
I know you're broken
Nothing left to break.
Sleep is not the answer.
You need to be alive
Be awake.
You're not just a shell
You are not dead inside.
Wake up, beautiful.
Look at the world
Be alive.
Ignore the demons
Who try to pull you down.
Be strong.
You are not shattered
Broken
Or defeated.
So wake up Brandi,
And let the world see you shine.
Wake up from this tragedy.
Breathe
Return to reality.
I know you're broken
Nothing left to break.
Sleep is not the answer.
You need to be alive
Be awake.
You're not just a shell
You are not dead inside.
Wake up, beautiful.
Look at the world
Be alive.
Ignore the demons
Who try to pull you down.
Be strong.
You are not shattered
Broken
Or defeated.
So wake up Brandi,
And let the world see you shine.
#children
#family
#daughter
445 reads
3 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
4th Jan 2020 6:07am
4th Jan 2020 6:07am
Why
Why do we begin if we
dont plan to finish?
Why do we love if we don't want to get hurt?
Why do we live if someday we must die?
Why do we smile if we hurt inside?
Why do we frown when our world is upside down?
Why do we plan but not take action?
Why do we cry and say were alright?
Why do we get mad when were just sad?
Why do we say hello if we mean goodbye?
Why do we question what shouldn't be questioned
and answer what shouldn't be answered?
WHY?
dont plan to finish?
Why do we love if we don't want to get hurt?
Why do we live if someday we must die?
Why do we smile if we hurt inside?
Why do we frown when our world is upside down?
Why do we plan but not take action?
Why do we cry and say were alright?
Why do we get mad when were just sad?
Why do we say hello if we mean goodbye?
Why do we question what shouldn't be questioned
and answer what shouldn't be answered?
WHY?
#identity
#confessional
#myself
#confusion
#SelfReflection
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4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
26th Dec 2019 5:03pm
26th Dec 2019 5:03pm
What If ?
Maybe things don't happen for a reason. Maybe we're just grasping for ways to make sense of the chaos around us. Maybe we're giving meaning to things that have no meaning. Maybe we're clinging to hope so hard that we forget about reality. What if we're wrong and nothing is meant to be?
What if we're just lost souls wandering aimlessly, desperately seeking comfort from the notion that things will work out in the end, no matter what.
What if we tricked ourselves into believing that everything will be ok just so we don't have to face the reality that maybe it won't?
What if we're just lost souls wandering aimlessly, desperately seeking comfort from the notion that things will work out in the end, no matter what.
What if we tricked ourselves into believing that everything will be ok just so we don't have to face the reality that maybe it won't?
#frustration
#confusion
#disappointment
424 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Dec 2019 4:39pm
26th Dec 2019 4:39pm
Daddys Girl
I was always a daddy's girl ... Even after I was grown with a daughter of my own, my dad was always there for me. He believed in me and encouraged me to take chances and to step outside of the Box.
He loved me unconditionally and
when he died a part of me died also
He was my hero and now he was gone.
But when the wind blows through the trees, I feel him right next to me.
Sometimes he meets me in my dreams, and i feel him kiss my forehead before he leaves. When I wake I can smell his cologne lingering in the room, and I know I'm the luckiest girl alive...
He loved me unconditionally and
when he died a part of me died also
He was my hero and now he was gone.
But when the wind blows through the trees, I feel him right next to me.
Sometimes he meets me in my dreams, and i feel him kiss my forehead before he leaves. When I wake I can smell his cologne lingering in the room, and I know I'm the luckiest girl alive...
#father
#separation
#daughter
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2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
30th Nov 2018 4:07pm
30th Nov 2018 4:07pm
I'm Tired
I'm tired of hearing words like
Time heals everything.
Time will never heal this empty place called my heart.
I'm tired of hearing
She loves you, your her mom and you can't be replaced.
Hmm ... seems I'm not only replaceable but disposable too.
I'm so tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending to be happy.
I'm tired of being strong and holding back the tears.
Truth is - I'm lost.
The pain is unbearable.
I can hardly breathe.
I'm so very , very, tired.
Time heals everything.
Time will never heal this empty place called my heart.
I'm tired of hearing
She loves you, your her mom and you can't be replaced.
Hmm ... seems I'm not only replaceable but disposable too.
I'm so tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending to be happy.
I'm tired of being strong and holding back the tears.
Truth is - I'm lost.
The pain is unbearable.
I can hardly breathe.
I'm so very , very, tired.
#anger
#heartbroken
#despair #emptiness
#despair #emptiness
505 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
30th Nov 2018 3:45pm
30th Nov 2018 3:45pm
Speed Demon
I'm writing this letter to tell you goodbye. I admit this is not easy for me, you were my first love and we've been together 33 years. I barely remember life without you.
When we were together, I was able to forget my problems and all my fears seemed to disappear. But so did my morals, feelings and any self worth I ever had. My depression was gone with your presence and you put a smile on my face, not even death could erase. We've seen many die before and in front of us and you said " Never look back " which I didnt ... until now.
I've had some of my best conversations with...
When we were together, I was able to forget my problems and all my fears seemed to disappear. But so did my morals, feelings and any self worth I ever had. My depression was gone with your presence and you put a smile on my face, not even death could erase. We've seen many die before and in front of us and you said " Never look back " which I didnt ... until now.
I've had some of my best conversations with...
#addiction
570 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
18th May 2017 5:53am
18th May 2017 5:53am
Living a Lie
She was lost.
And didn't know how to feel anymore.
She was both happy and sad.
At the same time.
Nobody knew how she really felt.
She kept it quiet.
She kept it for herself.
She lost so much.
And gained so little.
She never felt good enough.
For anyone.
Not even herself.
She walked with a smile.
Like everything was fine.
But deep down she knew.
She was living a lie.
She would forgive.
Over and over again.
She expected too much.
She never learned to let go.
What she...
And didn't know how to feel anymore.
She was both happy and sad.
At the same time.
Nobody knew how she really felt.
She kept it quiet.
She kept it for herself.
She lost so much.
And gained so little.
She never felt good enough.
For anyone.
Not even herself.
She walked with a smile.
Like everything was fine.
But deep down she knew.
She was living a lie.
She would forgive.
Over and over again.
She expected too much.
She never learned to let go.
What she...
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Apr 2017 00:28am
24th Apr 2017 00:28am
Final Act
I no longer think
But act
Its a complicated play
I've written
Is the final act about to close
Or is there more to see?
No eye contact now
Or I will break
And the play will be gone
The curtains drawn
And they will see
Its not a play
But reality
And the figure
On the stage
Is really me.
But act
Its a complicated play
I've written
Is the final act about to close
Or is there more to see?
No eye contact now
Or I will break
And the play will be gone
The curtains drawn
And they will see
Its not a play
But reality
And the figure
On the stage
Is really me.
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