Submissions by mel44
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write as an outlet to make sense of my world and experiences. My purpose of sharing my words with others is in the hope that readers may identify with them insofar as what it means for them.
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2024 12:14pm
22nd Sep 2024 12:14pm
Torrents of Insanity
Restless, unsettled preoccupation
manic, unstable ideation
pervasive thoughts for protection
maladapted process of intellection
Ill equipped to manage bracing
obsessive thinking, frantic pacing
no relief, comfort chasing
cannot cease the endless racing
Darkness envelopes, neurosis and anxiety
trembling, unsteady, unable to see
afflicted and condemned by society
mind fractured in torrents of insanity
manic, unstable ideation
pervasive thoughts for protection
maladapted process of intellection
Ill equipped to manage bracing
obsessive thinking, frantic pacing
no relief, comfort chasing
cannot cease the endless racing
Darkness envelopes, neurosis and anxiety
trembling, unsteady, unable to see
afflicted and condemned by society
mind fractured in torrents of insanity
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
148 reads
11 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
24th Jul 2024 11:13pm
24th Jul 2024 11:13pm
The Wave
Shuttering core
head spinning round
furious flutter
no sense of ground
am not floating
drowning in air
unable to breathe
racing stare
fierce battle
waging within
frozen limbs
cannot begin
anxiety crippling
sweaty drench
smothering
putrid stench
deep impact
wheeling swiftly
losing grip
ever quickly
familiar space
survival mode
here again
never slowed
head spinning round
furious flutter
no sense of ground
am not floating
drowning in air
unable to breathe
racing stare
fierce battle
waging within
frozen limbs
cannot begin
anxiety crippling
sweaty drench
smothering
putrid stench
deep impact
wheeling swiftly
losing grip
ever quickly
familiar space
survival mode
here again
never slowed
#anxiety
187 reads
8 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
16th Jul 2024 1:28am
16th Jul 2024 1:28am
Fair Weather
Some super hero
I cannot be
a mirage
expected of me
Will not pretend
nor wear a mask
not your place
to even ask
Unfair request
to comfort you
in spite of struggle
which does pursue
Life not yours
to dictate
what is best
as mine you hate
Felicity found
unknown to you
your decision
to not pursue
Will not defend
choices made
so you are kept
at ease in shade
I cannot be
a mirage
expected of me
Will not pretend
nor wear a mask
not your place
to even ask
Unfair request
to comfort you
in spite of struggle
which does pursue
Life not yours
to dictate
what is best
as mine you hate
Felicity found
unknown to you
your decision
to not pursue
Will not defend
choices made
so you are kept
at ease in shade
#disappointment
194 reads
14 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Apr 2024 9:34am
28th Apr 2024 9:34am
Awry
History repeats
resting still
here alone
feeling ill
what happened
to today?
all motivation
slipped away
lost is time
life a chore
a disposition
required cure
unbearable
unhealthy place
desperate
seeking grace
no light exists
tunnel dark
in despair
without spark
grey and dreary
this day amiss
all seems dull
emotional abyss
resting still
here alone
feeling ill
what happened
to today?
all motivation
slipped away
lost is time
life a chore
a disposition
required cure
unbearable
unhealthy place
desperate
seeking grace
no light exists
tunnel dark
in despair
without spark
grey and dreary
this day amiss
all seems dull
emotional abyss
#despair
#emptiness
#NaPoWriMo2024
193 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2024 8:36pm
26th Apr 2024 8:36pm
Noise
I cannot tune out
the sound around
head spinning
heart does pound
saturating
all my thinking
eyes blurred
surely sinking
unable to dull
sharp noises about
manic spiral
without doubt
wicked trick
mind does play
devoid the calm
lost my way
smothered in volume
to no end
stop it now
my will does bend
holding breath
needing ease
far too much
save me please
the sound around
head spinning
heart does pound
saturating
all my thinking
eyes blurred
surely sinking
unable to dull
sharp noises about
manic spiral
without doubt
wicked trick
mind does play
devoid the calm
lost my way
smothered in volume
to no end
stop it now
my will does bend
holding breath
needing ease
far too much
save me please
#LifeStruggles
#NaPoWriMo2024
136 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
25th Apr 2024 10:25pm
25th Apr 2024 10:25pm
Two
We had each other
it was me and you
for this reason
she said she had two
We did not realise
how much she knew
when we were young
it was just us two
Had disagreements
indeed quite a few
nonetheless
each a part of two
Growing older
the losses did accrue
Each thinking alone
finding we were still two
The empathy strings
are ringing on cue
feeling your hurt
I want to be two
Now so far away
her words never more true
wishing I was there ...
it was me and you
for this reason
she said she had two
We did not realise
how much she knew
when we were young
it was just us two
Had disagreements
indeed quite a few
nonetheless
each a part of two
Growing older
the losses did accrue
Each thinking alone
finding we were still two
The empathy strings
are ringing on cue
feeling your hurt
I want to be two
Now so far away
her words never more true
wishing I was there ...
#family
#NaPoWriMo2024
159 reads
3 Comments
SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
24th Apr 2024 9:24pm
24th Apr 2024 9:24pm
False Dilemma
No burden of chains
created to be free
and with that comes
eminent responsibility
Absent the belief
my path predefined
options and alternatives
selection unconfined
Truth I am not immune
consequences for choice
with some I shall suffer
and from others, I’ll rejoice
Future not predetermined
yet, judgement does await
an accountability exists
but freewill procures my fate
created to be free
and with that comes
eminent responsibility
Absent the belief
my path predefined
options and alternatives
selection unconfined
Truth I am not immune
consequences for choice
with some I shall suffer
and from others, I’ll rejoice
Future not predetermined
yet, judgement does await
an accountability exists
but freewill procures my fate
#NaPoWriMo2024
#spiritual
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0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Apr 2024 11:14pm
23rd Apr 2024 11:14pm
Not Alone
Wishing not
to drowse in sleep
tomorrow comes far too soon
lying down
awake in thought
gazing at the waxing moon
ponderous
question now
what the future holds for me
reflecting
foregoing rest
saying prayers that I may see
eyes weighty
begin to drift
to a place where I can dream
not alone
in the darkness
more content than I may seem
to drowse in sleep
tomorrow comes far too soon
lying down
awake in thought
gazing at the waxing moon
ponderous
question now
what the future holds for me
reflecting
foregoing rest
saying prayers that I may see
eyes weighty
begin to drift
to a place where I can dream
not alone
in the darkness
more content than I may seem
#hope
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sleep
167 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2024 7:33pm
22nd Apr 2024 7:33pm
Finding Hope
Amid a visceral pain
knowing I am alive
transient discomfort
where I often thrive
Through evident struggles
a place I find strength
fighting vicious battles
going to any length
Always a survivor
despite the suffering
remaining in a state
of constant recovering
Grateful for wisdoms
not easily learned
while enduring the storms
my life has been earned
Invariably discovering
a better means to cope
as long as I keep trying
forever finding hope
knowing I am alive
transient discomfort
where I often thrive
Through evident struggles
a place I find strength
fighting vicious battles
going to any length
Always a survivor
despite the suffering
remaining in a state
of constant recovering
Grateful for wisdoms
not easily learned
while enduring the storms
my life has been earned
Invariably discovering
a better means to cope
as long as I keep trying
forever finding hope
#hope
#LifeStruggles
#NaPoWriMo2024
158 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
21st Apr 2024 7:12pm
21st Apr 2024 7:12pm
Still
I tried to comfort you
in your lonely days
and melancholy ways
That you were isolated
was a matter of decision
a self-imposed prison
With compassion
I encouraged connection
but you fell, into abjection
Wishing for something
to foster will to live
yet, you remained resistive
It must have been awful
being on your own
always feeling so desperately alone
Not believing worthy
an excruciating void
self-worth became destroyed
I was unable to save you
not even from...
in your lonely days
and melancholy ways
That you were isolated
was a matter of decision
a self-imposed prison
With compassion
I encouraged connection
but you fell, into abjection
Wishing for something
to foster will to live
yet, you remained resistive
It must have been awful
being on your own
always feeling so desperately alone
Not believing worthy
an excruciating void
self-worth became destroyed
I was unable to save you
not even from...
#death
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sadness
204 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
19th Apr 2024 6:50pm
19th Apr 2024 6:50pm
Absent the Hunger
I heard the birds
chose not to rise
tears betray
my blurry eyes
Resting here
unable to sleep
unknown reasons
for why I weep
I am not meant
to exist today
how I feel
no words convey
Devoid of senses
empty, numb
no smell or flavour
seems to come
Absent the hunger
deficient desire
without even a start
decision to retire
chose not to rise
tears betray
my blurry eyes
Resting here
unable to sleep
unknown reasons
for why I weep
I am not meant
to exist today
how I feel
no words convey
Devoid of senses
empty, numb
no smell or flavour
seems to come
Absent the hunger
deficient desire
without even a start
decision to retire
#despair
#NaPoWriMo2024
#sadness
206 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
19th Apr 2024 6:49pm
19th Apr 2024 6:49pm
Untitled
Oh I am so tired
of cold, wind and rain
reverberating echoes
cyclone in my brain
spirits creeping
remnants of past
haunting darkness
shadows cast
growing more weary
worse than before
a constant cloud cover
forgetting to soar
not protected
no armour to wear
demons devour
without a care
drowning in wreckage
an emotional flood
this time the enemy
out for blood
of cold, wind and rain
reverberating echoes
cyclone in my brain
spirits creeping
remnants of past
haunting darkness
shadows cast
growing more weary
worse than before
a constant cloud cover
forgetting to soar
not protected
no armour to wear
demons devour
without a care
drowning in wreckage
an emotional flood
this time the enemy
out for blood
#dark
#depression
#NaPoWriMo2024
192 reads
0 Comments
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