Submissions by marina2020 (Rain Woman)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write in the dead of night, scribbling my emotions on a page.
One More Hug
I saw my dad today
He came in the form of a dream
Somewhere in a snowy landscape
Wrapped in his mailman winter jacket
I looked around at my surroundings
Snow falling heavy from the sky
I see buildings and cars on a street block
He was about to enter the building next to me
When we locked eyes
I ran around the cars piled with inches of snow
Right into his open arms
I look up and see his smiling face and feel the weight of his arms around me
We exchange no words but I can tell he's happy to see me
I...
He came in the form of a dream
Somewhere in a snowy landscape
Wrapped in his mailman winter jacket
I looked around at my surroundings
Snow falling heavy from the sky
I see buildings and cars on a street block
He was about to enter the building next to me
When we locked eyes
I ran around the cars piled with inches of snow
Right into his open arms
I look up and see his smiling face and feel the weight of his arms around me
We exchange no words but I can tell he's happy to see me
I...
#death
#dreams
#father
#love
#spiritual
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Which Way To Go
The silence is almost as deafening as the sound of my pounding heart
It’s almost like the world knows when I’m starting to fall apart
The world gets quiet as if mimicking my current state of being
Holding its next move to see if I’ll be fighting or fleeing
It’s almost like the world knows when I’m starting to fall apart
The world gets quiet as if mimicking my current state of being
Holding its next move to see if I’ll be fighting or fleeing
#FeelingLost
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A Poem I Can Never Finish
It’s hard to be happy when everything reminds me of you
It’s hard seeing everyone move on when I can’t
It’s hard to be alive when you are not
It’s hard seeing everyone move on when I can’t
It’s hard to be alive when you are not
#grief
#father
#death #memorial
#death #memorial
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Waking Up
I remember being terrified
Waking up from a nightmare
Running downstairs
And waking you up
Almost unable to speak
Say why I was crying
But I had done this before
You already knew
You held me in your arms
Let me cry
And told me that everything was going to be ok
It was only a dream
But dreams are all I have of you now
And its pain
Waking up now
Knowing you are gone
So I walk down to the water
Breathing in the cool air
Listening to your favorite songs
And thinking of you ...
Waking up from a nightmare
Running downstairs
And waking you up
Almost unable to speak
Say why I was crying
But I had done this before
You already knew
You held me in your arms
Let me cry
And told me that everything was going to be ok
It was only a dream
But dreams are all I have of you now
And its pain
Waking up now
Knowing you are gone
So I walk down to the water
Breathing in the cool air
Listening to your favorite songs
And thinking of you ...
#grief
#father
#death
#sleep
#nightmares
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Reminiscing On The Past
Sometimes I come back to this island
And reminisce on the past
Walking through the forest I once called home
I used to take strolls here-much like this-
Amidst all the beautiful plants and tall trees
Hearing the sounds of creatures scurrying out of sight
I’m reminded of all I’ve left behind
A small part of me wonders
What would my life be like if I stayed on this island?
I walk on, deeper into the forest
And I take in my surroundings
A mix of light and dark greens
Vines strewn everywhere
A slight breeze...
And reminisce on the past
Walking through the forest I once called home
I used to take strolls here-much like this-
Amidst all the beautiful plants and tall trees
Hearing the sounds of creatures scurrying out of sight
I’m reminded of all I’ve left behind
A small part of me wonders
What would my life be like if I stayed on this island?
I walk on, deeper into the forest
And I take in my surroundings
A mix of light and dark greens
Vines strewn everywhere
A slight breeze...
#identity
#mythology
#SelfReflection
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Laying In Bed
Sometimes I cannot get up in the morning
Not because I enjoy laying there but because I have no strength to move
I wake up numb to the world
Not knowing why I cannot feel a single emotion
I know it’s wrong to have nothing worth living for
But in those moments, all I have is darkness
And it tells me to stay in bed because I am not strong enough to take on the world
I am not strong enough to do what is expected of me
I am not strong enough
It says that the moment I move, I will shatter into a million little pieces
And that will hurt more than...
Not because I enjoy laying there but because I have no strength to move
I wake up numb to the world
Not knowing why I cannot feel a single emotion
I know it’s wrong to have nothing worth living for
But in those moments, all I have is darkness
And it tells me to stay in bed because I am not strong enough to take on the world
I am not strong enough to do what is expected of me
I am not strong enough
It says that the moment I move, I will shatter into a million little pieces
And that will hurt more than...
#depression
#hate
#myself #emptiness
#myself #emptiness
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I See You
I feel the sadness through each text you send me
I see the struggle in your eyes when we videocall
I know what it’s like to be trapped in your own mind
Desperate to give in to all the terrible thoughts
I can see the shadows that loom around you some days
I want you to know you are not alone
I am here and that will never change
I don’t pretend to know your demons
But I will face them with you if you let me
You are stronger than you will ever know
I see the struggle in your eyes when we videocall
I know what it’s like to be trapped in your own mind
Desperate to give in to all the terrible thoughts
I can see the shadows that loom around you some days
I want you to know you are not alone
I am here and that will never change
I don’t pretend to know your demons
But I will face them with you if you let me
You are stronger than you will ever know
#sadness
#depression
#lover #FeelingLost
#lover #FeelingLost
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To Be Numb in a World Full of Feeling
I stare off into space
Not the space above
But the space in front of me
That somehow seems more devoid
This feeling comes and goes
Always leaving me wondering
Questioning why do I have to feel this way
Almost like the world is too much
My brain cannot process it all
I have to stop – do nothing – feel nothing
Just to start again – reset – take in the world again
But it’s not really a reset
More like a faulty wire
Making the light flicker at random moments
Agonizing if and when the wire finally breaks
Not the space above
But the space in front of me
That somehow seems more devoid
This feeling comes and goes
Always leaving me wondering
Questioning why do I have to feel this way
Almost like the world is too much
My brain cannot process it all
I have to stop – do nothing – feel nothing
Just to start again – reset – take in the world again
But it’s not really a reset
More like a faulty wire
Making the light flicker at random moments
Agonizing if and when the wire finally breaks
#myself
#SelfReflection
#FeelingLost
#emptiness
#emotions
512 reads
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Time
I wish I had more
There never seems to be enough
I need more
Time to get work done
Time to think
Time to spend with family
Time I never had with my dad
I never really thought much about time until now
Not until his ran out
There never seems to be enough
I need more
Time to get work done
Time to think
Time to spend with family
Time I never had with my dad
I never really thought much about time until now
Not until his ran out
#family
#memories
#father #death
#father #death
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1 Year
We clicked
Softly at first
Looking
Hearing
Feeling our way about
Treading lightly
As to not push too hard
Talking
Laughing
Listening so intently
Sharing our lives
Our goals
Our past
Our present
Dreaming of our future
A month goes by
Quickly
Suddenly
Full of firsts
With many ups and downs
I grow accustomed
To your laugh
Your smile
And your warmth
Loving every minute we are together
We’ve hit obstacles
Distance
Disagreements ...
Softly at first
Looking
Hearing
Feeling our way about
Treading lightly
As to not push too hard
Talking
Laughing
Listening so intently
Sharing our lives
Our goals
Our past
Our present
Dreaming of our future
A month goes by
Quickly
Suddenly
Full of firsts
With many ups and downs
I grow accustomed
To your laugh
Your smile
And your warmth
Loving every minute we are together
We’ve hit obstacles
Distance
Disagreements ...
#happiness
#love
#relationships
541 reads
5 Comments
Chaotic Mind
It's that time again
One month till college
Time to start packing
Making lists
Thinking of what I can't forget
One month of my summer job left
Have to push through
Make some money to save
Spend lots of time with my mom
Once I leave, she'll be alone
Still have summer courses to get through
Don't loose focus
Somehow make it another month without seeing my love
Try to get in as many video calls as possible
Think of getting my tortoise to the dorm
And our cat
Waiting on people to email me back
Trying to get my...
One month till college
Time to start packing
Making lists
Thinking of what I can't forget
One month of my summer job left
Have to push through
Make some money to save
Spend lots of time with my mom
Once I leave, she'll be alone
Still have summer courses to get through
Don't loose focus
Somehow make it another month without seeing my love
Try to get in as many video calls as possible
Think of getting my tortoise to the dorm
And our cat
Waiting on people to email me back
Trying to get my...
#anxiety
#LifeStruggles
#college
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Waiting On The Day
You're always on my mind
I'm always wondering what you're up to
And if you're thinking of me
Knowing we will be living together
In a month and a half
Is eating me alive
I just want to be there already
You, me, the cat, and the tortoise
Living in the same space
It's a dream come true
But I have to wait
And make it through the summer
I'm not a patience person
I just want to be able to kiss you
Whenever I want
I want to be able to go to bed next to you
And wake up to see your...
I'm always wondering what you're up to
And if you're thinking of me
Knowing we will be living together
In a month and a half
Is eating me alive
I just want to be there already
You, me, the cat, and the tortoise
Living in the same space
It's a dream come true
But I have to wait
And make it through the summer
I'm not a patience person
I just want to be able to kiss you
Whenever I want
I want to be able to go to bed next to you
And wake up to see your...
#love
#relationships
#LongDistanceRelationship #IMissYou
#LongDistanceRelationship #IMissYou
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